DustySaltus Posted August 3, 2009 Posted August 3, 2009 I was staying NC for a couple weeks but I slipped up and sent her an email today saying that we deserve a fresh start with each other. No response yet but I am feeling like a schmuck for sending it, although under the right pretenses that it what I want. Anyone here that knows my story (see my old posts) knows that I've put up with a TON of nonsense. I was doing well, why this sudden breakdown. I need to be pulled back at this point and I need help....
lorilynne Posted August 3, 2009 Posted August 3, 2009 It's ok. We all make those mistakes. I called my ex on Saturday and hate myself for it. Just start over. If she hasn't read it yet, can you delete it? I know in our inner office mail at work we can. If not just start NC today. You'll be allright.
AnswersPls Posted August 3, 2009 Posted August 3, 2009 i am almost on the verge of calling my ex today.. I really really feel like calling him.. i am almost gg crazy can someone pls help me and advise me against calling him PLSSssss
Author DustySaltus Posted August 3, 2009 Author Posted August 3, 2009 how long ago did you break up and why?
AnswersPls Posted August 3, 2009 Posted August 3, 2009 we broke up 6-7 weeks ago.. only NC for 4 weeks. he called me on fri asking me if i know where i put his passport...... i said no then hanged up.. we were together for 4 yrs 4 months.. he was not ready to commit to me as he felt i was not the one.. .. its so painful.. how about urs?
utterer of lies Posted August 3, 2009 Posted August 3, 2009 I was staying NC for a couple weeks but I slipped up and sent her an email today saying that we deserve a fresh start with each other. No response yet but I am feeling like a schmuck for sending it, although under the right pretenses that it what I want. Anyone here that knows my story (see my old posts) knows that I've put up with a TON of nonsense. I was doing well, why this sudden breakdown. I need to be pulled back at this point and I need help.... The only thing you need is self-respect.
Author DustySaltus Posted August 3, 2009 Author Posted August 3, 2009 we broke up 6-7 weeks ago.. only NC for 4 weeks. he called me on fri asking me if i know where i put his passport...... i said no then hanged up.. we were together for 4 yrs 4 months.. he was not ready to commit to me as he felt i was not the one.. .. its so painful.. how about urs? Check my thread history, long story. I was engaged for about 4 months. Haven't spoken in a little over a week (it was pretty nasty anyway)....I had a passport issue too.
Author DustySaltus Posted August 3, 2009 Author Posted August 3, 2009 The only thing you need is self-respect. You're right I did and need to get it back.
AnswersPls Posted August 3, 2009 Posted August 3, 2009 Check my thread history, long story. I was engaged for about 4 months. Haven't spoken in a little over a week (it was pretty nasty anyway)....I had a passport issue too. passport issue?? meaning you called her because you could not find your passport?
Author DustySaltus Posted August 3, 2009 Author Posted August 3, 2009 passport issue?? meaning you called her because you could not find your passport? No, like she may have hid my passport.
AnswersPls Posted August 4, 2009 Posted August 4, 2009 oh GOSH.. thats silly.. lols anyway.. I just wanted to share with you that I broke NC and called him today... But I am not regretting it.. as in.. i guess i can move on now.. So how.. did she reply u back?..
Author DustySaltus Posted August 4, 2009 Author Posted August 4, 2009 She hasn't said anything yet, but she didn't tell me she was blocking me again either which could mean a couple of things either good or bad. I'm starting to think that the best case scenario would be her telling me to go back to her country and live there for the next 50-60 years of my life. She would have all the power and I believe that is something that needs to be shared. That's not somthing I want, but something inside me is being irrational and telling me that this is not over. But until I accept the fact that it is I will never get past this. I told myself that i wouldn't break NC time and time again...initially you feel better but as the hours and days go by thoseemotions will eventually swing the other way. Then you call again because it will make you feel better again, but nothing happens. It's like taking aspirin for a broken arm..the pain might go away for a little while but it's not going to heal the arm. With that being said there is a saying that if you love someone enough to think about them every single day, then you should never give up on them. But that can be very painful as well. I miss her a lot but there are certain sides that I will never miss. She was a very vindictive person when she wanted to be and I never deserved that. For the most part I think i'm a good guy and have good intentions. We'll see what happens now...
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