tigressA Posted July 30, 2009 Posted July 30, 2009 ...And all I can really think right now is "Finally." I'm actually that relieved. I feel a little guilty for thinking that way, but I'll be working on that. The two of us can both move on with our lives now. It was an up-and-down 20 months we had together. I have 4 weeks until I have to go back to school. I found a place in the area to stay for the remainder of my time, so I can keep my job until I return to school. He was really upset. He even cried, which I never thought would happen. I cried some too. The stone-cold look I got from him on my way from his house frightened me beyond belief, but his parents acted okay. I'll still be sending them a thank-you note for allowing me to stay with them all that time; I am very grateful for it and it's the least I can do. My ex said over and over that he didn't want to lose me, etc, but it's the best thing for him and for me--I figured out that I was wasting my time being with someone who I didn't truly love and appreciate anymore, and I was wasting his too. He'll see that eventually. And if he doesn't, I have to remember that that is his problem and not mine at all.
Thomas X Forever Posted July 30, 2009 Posted July 30, 2009 ...And all I can really think right now is "Finally." I'm actually that relieved. I feel a little guilty for thinking that way In about 2 weeks to 2 months, it will hit you. Don't worry, it won't be guilt you feel once you realize you lost someone you were close with. Most of us feel relief initially, and it feels good for a week or so. But then the reality begins to slowly creep in, and our initial relief begins to fade too. We're left with the true reality, that the one we loved is actually GONE. PUT UP YOUR GUARD AND GET READY. This is going to get bad.
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