Saudade Posted July 29, 2009 Posted July 29, 2009 So, it's been 43 days since I last saw my ex, feels like only yesterday. The more time goes by the more I feel him slip away. I have followed NC like a religion, I did at least learn something from my last relationship break up. NC has been a necessity for my mental health, not a tactic to bring my ex back. I fear I am older and wiser now and know enough about this world to know when someone goes, they really go. Rarely do ex's return and good luck to you my friends if they do even so, I am only human and there are still moments when I hope to God he will return and miss me, but the more time goes by the more I know he's closer to his new life and I'm not - that sucks! It would be our anniversary on Friday - I wonder if he will rememeber, nothing to rememeber I guess. I cling to a faint hope I will get flowers at the door with a card that says 'Take me back' and yet that other 'older and wiser' side pops out all the time and says 'Life in NOT like the movies' ooooh how I wish it was. I want to believe in happy endings. I cannot wait for my recovery and improvments, no matter how hard I try to get on with life the harder I fall when I have a bad day. I have no idea what that was all about but it helped
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