I'm back, grrr.

[BillClam]

Well, I've been away for a while, both good and bad, though I come back with more bad yet again.

 

Last time I ranted, it was about a girl I was dating while not over my ex, and yeah, that ended bad, but now we're friends, which is great, but at the same time, crappy in the sense that I'm not dating that awesome girl. However, it's cool too, I'm even doing ok with the first Ex in question.

 

However, I seem to be throwing myself in front of the train, and there's no one else to blame but me, I haven't had a "girlfriend" in the committed sense in some time, I've hooked up, which is great, but this also ends in tragedy.

 

Recently, I lived with one such girl, she never really fully committed, I've moved out, but all this crap comes up. I mean, I was great to her, but I always had hunches, which were confirmed by her sister (a great friend) this girl just keeps people at arm's length, and lied to me consitently about what she did with other guys. I mean, I led myself on in a way, but she would also at times, treat me like I was her boyfriend, or worse yet, her gay friend (not to be offensive to any members of the homosexual community, it's just the best analogy I can find) I've got this weird urge though, to want to help her, even though I've moved out. But I know she doesn't deserve it, I don't know how to describe this person, totally insecure, that's for sure, but she's done more damage by not just being a whole person.

 

I want to bring up what's she's done, but don't know how, and at the same time, I can't make myself "hate" her, or anybody for that matter. How do I say, you ****ed up, but maybe I can be here for you if you try?