hoping2heal Posted July 27, 2009 Posted July 27, 2009 Well, thank you again... I'm better off without him, true. I still miss him though. But sheesh...it's like I have everything to look forward to in life--great friends and family, doing well in school, etc. And I'm happy with all of that, but.... I really would like that special someone to share it with, you know? I'm not talking getting married or having kids right now. Just...that guy, who is my best friend, as well as my lover. Maybe I'm one of the unlucky few who wont get that out of life though. Yeah, I do know. I've felt like that before. Like so much great was going on and going for me, but there was no voice on my answering machine to tell me I was loved at the end of the day. Yeah, I remember that feeling. It isn't a nice one, and quite frankly I BRIEFLY had something going on with this MAJOR jerk, but thankfully when I realised what a jerk he was, I ended that one. I made him 5 different kinds of christmas cookies for his bday because he wouldn't be able to go home for christmas and wanted to have something to remind him of home, and his birthday was 2 days pre-christmas. Well, he didn't even CALL to say thankyou. He sent me a text. Yeah that was it for me, but that was also good, for once I was learning from my mistakes and not making excuses for some guy to treat me like crap. Worked out well too, because a few months after that I met my current partner who is absolutely wonderful . It's okay to miss a-holes, I mean they obviously had some semi magnetic quality to rope us right? But it'll pass when you realise you deserve better, his behavior will make him less and less appealing. Til one day you're like man, what was I thinking?
Author Aerorobyn Posted July 28, 2009 Author Posted July 28, 2009 Yeah, I do know. I've felt like that before. Like so much great was going on and going for me, but there was no voice on my answering machine to tell me I was loved at the end of the day. Yeah, I remember that feeling. It isn't a nice one, and quite frankly I BRIEFLY had something going on with this MAJOR jerk, but thankfully when I realised what a jerk he was, I ended that one. I made him 5 different kinds of christmas cookies for his bday because he wouldn't be able to go home for christmas and wanted to have something to remind him of home, and his birthday was 2 days pre-christmas. Well, he didn't even CALL to say thankyou. He sent me a text. Yeah that was it for me, but that was also good, for once I was learning from my mistakes and not making excuses for some guy to treat me like crap. Worked out well too, because a few months after that I met my current partner who is absolutely wonderful . It's okay to miss a-holes, I mean they obviously had some semi magnetic quality to rope us right? But it'll pass when you realise you deserve better, his behavior will make him less and less appealing. Til one day you're like man, what was I thinking? A text? How lame. I'm glad you found someone worthwhile though! And...I already know I deserve better, so when will I stop missing him? Heh. Maybe it isn't him I really miss, but rather the things we did together? Or just who I thought he was? I don't know.
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