mr.dream merchant Posted July 27, 2009 Posted July 27, 2009 Sometimes I smile. Sometimes I frown. Sometimes I think of you. And then realize you're not around. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I laugh. Remembered looking into your eyes. You're what I used to have. How do I go on? How do I pretend? I miss you so much. I would've loved you till the very end. Do you miss me? Do you think of me? No contact is what you gave me. No longer an "us", how can it be? Its been about two months now, since I last felt her, saw her eyes, held her, kissed her, told her I loved her. Two months just about. There's just been those days man, where I break down, and I cry. For about a good 5 minutes. I love the **** out of her. But I know that she doesn't love me. Probably never will. I feel like I don't know her anymore. Like what we had was a lie. So many emotions are going through me. I don't even want to go out with my homeboys anymore. Sometimes I just want to be alone, and think about her. Being around other women, seeing happy people..it just all reminds me of her. I end up wondering if she's having a blast now that she isn't tied down to a guy she didn't give a **** about. **** man. I hide it but this is so hard for me. I don't know anything about her anymore. I don't know if that's good or bad. Sometimes I wish I'd just find out what she's up to and get it over with. But that would leave me worse off than I am now. So I keep drudging through hell. But the thoughts of her have been full on for 3 days now. In my car, I found a hair of hers. The whole day I thought about her. I haven't been in contact with her, don't want to be, don't plan on it. But why can't I stop thinking about her? Thinking of her just moving on with her life like I didn't even exist. It hurts alot.
angelface78 Posted July 27, 2009 Posted July 27, 2009 I know exactly how u feel!! I have not spoken to my ex for 1 month. I feel the same way you do. I wonder if he is out there partying or with another girl..but the truth is he probably isnt. So dont worry she probably isnt living this great life you think she is. Stay strong. Go out with friends..even if you dont want to. Its a distraction. Things will get better. I dont know if you are religious but god will not abandon us. He is most near us when we are in pain.
Author mr.dream merchant Posted July 27, 2009 Author Posted July 27, 2009 Truth is, nobody knows what she is up to. But theres days where my thoughts wonder, and I just assume the worst. Thinking of her enjoying herself now, moving on without a problem, possibly with a new guy in her life...it gets me down because it makes me feel like I didn't mean anything to her.
Sbrizio Posted July 27, 2009 Posted July 27, 2009 Ehi Mr.Dream Merchant, today you looked into my hearth and you wrote down those words. Today i feel the very same things you do. It's been 1 month for me. I go out, i see people, i talk and write and think...and at this moment she's having fun with her new guy. I still love her, i can't forget her, and i'm probably just a pale memory in her new life. I miss her a lot tonight. Thanks man, cause you make me feel i'm not alone in this ****.
alphamale Posted July 27, 2009 Posted July 27, 2009 there there mr. dream merchant *gives pats on back*
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