I am on day 33 of NC and i feel like i cant go on.

[angelface78]

I AM ON DAY 33 OF NC. NEW TO THIS SITE... I FEEL LIKE I CANT GO ON ANY LONGER. I DONT WANT TO CALL BECAUSE IF HE IS MISSING ME RIGHT NOW THE SECOND I CALL HE WILL FEEL BETTER AND I WONT ALLEVIATE HIS PAIN. HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN SUCH A JERK TO ME...AND HE IS IS SO PRIDEFUL. I KNOW HE IS WAITING FOR A CALL FROM ME BUT I WILL NOT CALL! I WILL NOT LET HIM KNOW I AM SUFFERING. I PRAY TO GOD FOR STRENGTH....I KNOW HE WILL NOT LEAVE ME ALONE TO SUFFER FOREVER. WHEN WILL THIS PAIN EVER END????

[EmptyPromises]

aw im so sorry your feeling this way! please stay strong and keep no contact! we all look up to you on this site for going that long thats so incredible!

 

if he wants to contact you he will... hed be stupid to keep this dragging on if he cared about you.. if he doesnt contact you .. live & learn from it.. it wasnt meant to be and youll move on to bigger and brighter things.

 

save your dignity and your pride and keep no contact. i wishh i was as strong as you!

[angelface78]

Oh thanks so much empty promises....i really am trying so very hard. I am glad i found this site. Ive been doing it alone for so long...with only one person who has helped me so much..but he doesnt really understand. He has never been heart broken. Good to hear it from someone that has felt heartbreak. Thanks for your support.

[frustrated&sad]

angelface,

 

Stay strong, lady! 30+ days is a milestone, or so I keep telling myself. I like you have just hit that. All I have wanted to do the past 5 days is call, email, text. It has gotten harder, not easier. I keep posting things on this site or I call my friends and family when I feel the urge.

 

You can do it! He's not worth it. If he's really all that great, he'll call you. Otherwise, don't let yourself be played in his hands. You are doing great! Keep posting.

 

We will all get through this pain. Promise.

[angelface78]

Frustrated and sad....oh im so glad you and i are on the same page. I am having the worst day ever!!! Thank you for your support!

[frustrated&sad]

Yep, worst days ever. But we are good people who deserve better. Plus, if we can make it through this, we can survive anything. I'm already planning something fun for my 50-day milestone. And while I just seem to feel worse and worse, I know that calling will only make me feel SO MUCH worse when I don't get the "I've missed you and I love you" response. Even if I got that response, I still wouldn't take him back. If he hurt me this much, he could do it again. So I'm going to get through this pain with the help of y'all out there. Again, we can do it! and we will. Time just goes slowly these days.

 

You will make it!

[angelface78]

It does get worse and worse as time goes on. In a way better though. Congratulations...do something fun to celebrate. Keep strong.

[moo]

angelface you sound like you are really, really suffering. Consider seeing a therapist to help you through this. As I told others, you can get therapy for free or very, very low cost in many places. If you need help finding one, let me know.

[Road To Joy]

You have made TREMENDOUS effort, and have done such a good job. Do NOT break NC. You do seem like you're going through a really hard bump, but remember it's just a bump. We all know even when you're in NC for a long time and things get lighter, we have those days that are just unbearable. On days like these, just focus on getting through them. If you can put off to the side any responsibilities for the day, do so. And just focus on getting through the day. Tomorrow will most likely be better, and even if it isn't, in a few days, IT WILL. I promise you this, just keep strong.

 

I know you can do it.

[EmptyPromises]

yess and if you break NC your back to square one and have to start all over!

[angelface78]

THANKS TO ALL OF U I HAVE MADE IT THRU THE DAY. I APPRECIATE IT!