EmptyPromises Posted July 26, 2009 Posted July 26, 2009 no contact got broken on friday, he texted me some nonsense and then kept calling me... finally picked up and he was angry about something that i didnt do and proceeded to tell me he never loved me and used me and that i forced him to go out with me that he never wanted it ( we dated a year..and as far as i recall no one was forced into anything) finally made out with a really nice guy last night .. havent touched anyone the entire 3 months weve been broken up.. thought about the ex alot today just woke up feeling guilty hungout with this new guy tonight, watched a movie,.. the entire time i was thinking about my ex .. and this new guy started to rub my arm and i was so grossed out that it wasnt my ex touching me. i wanted to cry. i just have the urge to talk to him or call him and tell him how i feel, but i know i would look pathetic doing so and it would be a huge mistake on my part...esp after what he said to me on friday. why am i thinking about him so much these past couple of days? just venting...
Road To Joy Posted July 26, 2009 Posted July 26, 2009 no contact got broken on friday, he texted me some nonsense and then kept calling me... finally picked up and he was angry about something that i didnt do and proceeded to tell me he never loved me and used me and that i forced him to go out with me that he never wanted it ( we dated a year..and as far as i recall no one was forced into anything) finally made out with a really nice guy last night .. havent touched anyone the entire 3 months weve been broken up.. thought about the ex alot today just woke up feeling guilty hungout with this new guy tonight, watched a movie,.. the entire time i was thinking about my ex .. and this new guy started to rub my arm and i was so grossed out that it wasnt my ex touching me. i wanted to cry. i just have the urge to talk to him or call him and tell him how i feel, but i know i would look pathetic doing so and it would be a huge mistake on my part...esp after what he said to me on friday. why am i thinking about him so much these past couple of days? just venting... Well, the reason you're thinking about him so much is because NC was broken. That's not a hard one to figure out As for the whole making out thing, it makes sense. Well, at least you're not the only one going through it. I haven't touched another girl since the breakup, either. But I have been flirting through texts with this one girl... it doesn't always feel right. I know I probably sound like a total pansy. Most people just have a problem with hooking up after a breakup, flirting alone is sometimes hard for me, haha. Sometimes it helps, I'm not going to lie. But other times I kinda just feel like, "What am I doing?" And it feels uncomfortable. I'm guessing this is normal... yknow, to feel this way. I hope it is, and I hope it'll pass.
Author EmptyPromises Posted July 26, 2009 Author Posted July 26, 2009 thank you! yea, it just feels wrong for some reason. but im clearly not over my ex yet and thats why i feel like that. and yea no contact was broken so i agree with that being the reason why my mind has been on him the past couple of days.. i just dont understand why im so stuck on a guy thats so rude and heartless towards me ... hes said the most horrible things ive ever heard from anybody in my entire life, and i cant let him go? is something wrong with me?
Meaplus3 Posted July 26, 2009 Posted July 26, 2009 I'm sure he's on your mind becuase of the recent contact. Best thing to do, back to NC. This will allow you to break free from all the emotions. You can do it, but you have to stick with it. Best of luck. Mea:)
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