Author trippi1432 Posted October 18, 2009 Author Posted October 18, 2009 Thats kind of a depressing outlook on things!! I wouldn't say you've lost anything you couldn't afford to lose Trippi. I think "god" missed the mark on that one! (tojaz crawls under table waiting for lightning bolt!) TOJAZ I tend to agree, but you know they say that pride cometh before the fall....(hiding under bed for that lightening strike myself!)
Author trippi1432 Posted October 18, 2009 Author Posted October 18, 2009 Now this horoscope was very funny: If you are not already in love you probably will be by the end of the day. Haven't you ever noticed that when one person falls in love, usually others around them also do? Love is a very contagious thing that should be spread to infect everyone.
tojaz Posted October 18, 2009 Posted October 18, 2009 I tend to agree, but you know they say that pride cometh before the fall....(hiding under bed for that lightening strike myself!) "They" say a lot of things!
Author trippi1432 Posted October 18, 2009 Author Posted October 18, 2009 The World card symbolizes the completion of a cycle and the end of an era. In love, you may be ready now to make an important commitment like marriage, or you could also have just left a long-term relationship. This is a time of accomplishment, where you have succeeded in learning the lessons you set out to learn. You can give yourself credit for all that you have achieved as you move forward into the future.
tojaz Posted October 18, 2009 Posted October 18, 2009 The World card symbolizes the completion of a cycle and the end of an era. In love, you may be ready now to make an important commitment like marriage, or you could also have just left a long-term relationship. This is a time of accomplishment, where you have succeeded in learning the lessons you set out to learn. You can give yourself credit for all that you have achieved as you move forward into the future. :confused: Trippi, check outside, i think the internet is hiding in your bushes spying on you! LOL Heres mine>> The Emperor card indicates that you may want more of a sense of form and structure in your relationships now. Commitment, stability, and structure are all words that are influencing love and romance at this time as you or your partner may be ready to settle down and make your connection permanent. Though things may feel serious now, you do have a chance to gain clarity and insight. As the youngsters would say....EPIC FAIL!!!
tojaz Posted October 18, 2009 Posted October 18, 2009 Heres the horoscope Cancer>> There are a lot of bugs in the air at this time of the year when the weather can change back and forth drastically. Take good care of yourself beforehand so you don't have to deal with being sick later on. Precaution is the key to good health. Uhh, Yeah, thanks for the tip universe!
Author trippi1432 Posted October 18, 2009 Author Posted October 18, 2009 Heres the horoscope Cancer>> There are a lot of bugs in the air at this time of the year when the weather can change back and forth drastically. Take good care of yourself beforehand so you don't have to deal with being sick later on. Precaution is the key to good health. Uhh, Yeah, thanks for the tip universe! Sorry....pout.
Author trippi1432 Posted October 18, 2009 Author Posted October 18, 2009 Oh, hilarious...guess I should have gotten out of the house today....oh well, missed my chance. LOL!! Your love life is due for a bump, and you can feel good social energy flooding in to help you out. Take some time off with your mate or go looking for someone new -- it's hard for you to fail today!
Author trippi1432 Posted October 18, 2009 Author Posted October 18, 2009 So much indifference, so you've moved on....you seem to always know what you want...at least I thought you did. The ugliness of you over the past couple of weeks.....there's nothing left, not even at the bottom of my heart. I don't feel anything and when I don't have to see you, hear your voice, talk to you and put up with you....I finally feel the serenity of silence. My life is no longer chaos....it's peaceful......lonliness....I don't really really feel it, ppl keep me busy with things I should be doing. I don't really think about us anymore....not in the capacity of a couple, not in the capacity anymore of security when you were here....I like who I am now and who I am becoming. Yes, some days are down days...but I know that I am getting stronger. And as for your f'd up friend who says that is a dig and trying to hurt you, well they should know that these were the same things you were saying to me in the beginning...so if they are digs...you are just as guilty. They are not digs....it is reality. The truth is, it's hard to miss you because I got used to you not being there for me for so many years. I'm not trying to be ugly about it....it's honesty....you probably felt the same way, but you would be lying to yourself.....you were my concern, but I was never a concern for you. In the end, I just didn't know how to help you and you couldn't help yourself. I still refuse to take the blame for your inability to deal with life, deal with family and deal with a wife and kid. Those were your insecurities, your own inner fight to have to deal with. I am moving on with my life....not with a relationship with someone else....I'm moving on with a relationship with me. I'm finding a new life out there that I didn't know existed....friends near and far, ppl who care and who I can show my true side to because they don't want to judge me or be critical of me. My greatest hope is that you can let go and let me live the life you claim I should be. That is moving on and after the pain of your leaving, it is the respect that you should give me.
tojaz Posted October 18, 2009 Posted October 18, 2009 Wow Trippi, That was Strong, beautiful and extremely sad and painful all at the same time.:( I think I have to call it a night after that one. Good night LS. TOJAZ
Author trippi1432 Posted October 19, 2009 Author Posted October 19, 2009 Saturday night, a terrible tragedy happened in my neighborhood. A four year old child was running down the hall and hit his head on the doorframe. In most cases, a child would just get a bump or bruise, but the way he hit, it caused a small subdural hematoma and his brain stem stopped functioning. Unfortunately, my son was there when it happened and saw the child fall. No one was near him when he fell, but the man and woman who live in the house are being held on murder charges because little Isiah died. The issue is that 10 hours before the incident, the man admitted that he hit the child on the buttocks with a clothes hanger....yes, child abuse....but murder? No. The child was running for his room to get a toy and they think that the puppy may have tripped him. My son witnessed all of this and has been terribly distraught. He has cried his eyes out, gotten angry, slammed things around and is finding it hard to control himself....the emotions are totally out of control over the man being held for murder (who he later admitted was like a father figure to him) and the death of the little boy, coupled with his father and I going through a divorce is just too much. My son has admitted to me that it was hard enough losing a neighbor that we had a couple of years ago that was like a dad to him and now this. His father has only been gone 7 weeks, but it scares me as to why/how my son can attach to other people's fathers more than his own. I asked him why and he said because when dad was here, he wasn't here...he was always at a friend's house and when he was here, he was always yelling at me. My sister-in-law called my H yesterday to let him know that his son needed him. H called son and asked if he was ok and son said he was....he won't show his true feelings to his dad. H texted me later and asked if son was ok, I told him no, he was not ok.....H never called or texted son at all to find out more. Today, I get a text from H: H: How is (son)? fyi I am not getting a lwayer all i ask is for you to let me be in (son's) life not a day here or there. If you want me to be a good dad then plz le me be one. the support and joint accounts will be solved through the courts. thanks. (Background) - H decided last week that he was not going to continue paying voluntary support until we had a court order because someone told him it was a "gift". Attorney informed me that I should not allow child to go on overnights until a custody order was in place. H did ask if I needed money the other day, but I retained NC. M: He's not doing good over this and it is just dredging up anger from Isiah's death to our divorce. I'm taking him to a greif counselor today. When I told you he was not doing good, where were u? U should have been on the phone with him! If u do want to be a good dad, start acting like one. Now send that to your friend and let them analyze it for u and give u feedback. (Background) - sent sincere email to ex telling him that I understood it was over and would move on which was met with some strangers feedback over what I had said....very ugly. H: I text him and left a message. I am trying to do my part if he don't respons to me what else can I do? Whatever, your the one making it hard. M: I'm sorry u feel that way. U left me no choice but to hire the lawyer by ur actions last week. U need to ask him why he is not responding to you (H'name). He's told me. H: U told me 3 week ago u had a lawyer, so what is the truth? M: I've had a lawyer since the second week you left. I did a consultation. I had to pay the retainer fee to hire her to do the orders and divorce ($XXXX). I wasn't going to hire her until you started showing your ass about the support. U want me out of your life, gone, I'm gone! U still have a responsibility to (son). M: You need to ask him why he felt like (R- neighbor) was a father figure to him and why he thought (J-Isiah issue) was too. U need to ask him why he felt that u were always at (nephew's and drinking buddy's) and when u weren't u were always yelling at him. This is what he told me (H) and it breaks my heart for our son. This isn't about us!!! H: btw, I was willing to give you money. of course I got no reply. M: That's right, no reply because no contact with you is better than trying to talk to u. Plus, by then I paid the retainer so (lawyer) can deal with you from now on. H: you win, I will stay out of both your lives. M: I'm sorry you feel that way, but history repeats itself. As I've always told u, we can do better than our parents did, but you never listened. Goodbye. H: Tell (son) I won't be picking him up. M: 10-4 (he does this to me all the time when he's being hateful) So, that's that! As usual, father wants to be in his son's life only if it is on his terms.....it's sad, but this is how he was raised as well. I've begged, pleaded and tried as hard as I could to get them to establish a bond...but it is just not possible....my H does not know how that is. His father was hardly there and when he was, it wasn't always good. Why is it that some ppl can take a horrible childhood and come out on the other side so much different, but other's can't?
imagine Posted October 19, 2009 Posted October 19, 2009 Please record all these circumstances in a diary. I'm sure the courts need to know about this for allocating custody. You do not need to speak to hubby if you don't want to. Go via an intermediary. Text. Use lawyer.
Author trippi1432 Posted October 19, 2009 Author Posted October 19, 2009 Please record all these circumstances in a diary. I'm sure the courts need to know about this for allocating custody. You do not need to speak to hubby if you don't want to. Go via an intermediary. Text. Use lawyer. Thanks, just got off phone with lawyer and asking for sole custody.
Author trippi1432 Posted October 20, 2009 Author Posted October 20, 2009 Ok, here's a lesson in why you should go NC and what NC does. H is pissed at me because I went NC with him...then, after the above incident where he needed to be a father to his son...he decides not to be. Above text conversation leads him to call me tonight when I ask him if he even wants any visitation with his son since he claimed to stay out of both of our lives. Phone conversations only lead to blame, blame and more blame. I'm a hateful b**** for sending a sincere email to his work telling him that I am fine with moving on and I am letting go. According to him, I should have let him have the last word on his moving on the day before with his lunch partner and left it at that. Next, I am a b**** because I won't return his text about wanting to help me with support after he told me twice in one week that he would no longer pay it without a court order. I don't have to return his text messages or talk to him or even see him if I don't want to....I'm not his convenience, I am his STBXW. I am also a b**** for showing him that in divorce, assets aren't the only thing that get split, joint debt gets split as well and he left me with enough of that. Oh, I forgot that I am being greedy there, I'm supposed to raise our son, send him to college and pay off all the joint debt while I am paying my own. I am also a b**** for hiring a lawyer....let's see, he tells me to get a separation agreement, that calls for a lawyer. He tells me to get a court order for child support.....that calls for a lawyer. I need to get a custody order....that calls for a lawyer. Lastly, I am a b**** for telling him how his son feels about their relationship, how hurt he has been that they have not been close after this child has gone through this past weekend's trauma which dredges up his feelings about the divorce....and he doesn't even care to find out what happened....why his son had to go to grief counseling today and has to keep going. I didn't tell him that to hurt him, he needed to hear it so he could figure out why his son won't return his texts and phone calls. As I was informing another friend, conversations do get easier when you are dealing with a moron and hate them....makes it a lot easier.
tojaz Posted October 20, 2009 Posted October 20, 2009 Just stay NC!!! Don't talk, don't text, none of that. That thread shows he's still getting under your skin, and your still playing HIS game. Let him call you what ever he wants, treat his poor son however he wants, believe his misconceptions about life, love, and the law however he wants. Hes just showing the world what he's really about. Sit back and watch him lose at his own game!!! TOJAZ
feelrealempty Posted October 20, 2009 Posted October 20, 2009 wow trippi so sorry to be gone for so long and hear about all of this.. Your doing the right thing for your son who is number one.... Hope all went/is going well with couseling... Soooo sorry to hear what happend with your neighbor its heart wrenching. Your last blog entery was so uplifting to me though you have no idea I feel like sending that to my ex..but I'll catch up in my own post when I have time wanted to check in on you, again so sorry to hear about your son/your lose very happy to hear of your improvement.... TTYS
Author trippi1432 Posted October 20, 2009 Author Posted October 20, 2009 wow trippi so sorry to be gone for so long and hear about all of this.. Your doing the right thing for your son who is number one.... Hope all went/is going well with couseling... Soooo sorry to hear what happend with your neighbor its heart wrenching. Your last blog entery was so uplifting to me though you have no idea I feel like sending that to my ex..but I'll catch up in my own post when I have time wanted to check in on you, again so sorry to hear about your son/your lose very happy to hear of your improvement.... TTYS Hi Feel, Hope things are going better for you. Have been worried that I hadn't seen you on here (but was hopeful that it might be a good thing tho). Thanks for checking in. Hugs, Trippi
Author trippi1432 Posted October 21, 2009 Author Posted October 21, 2009 Well, the separation agreement, custody order and CS order are all being drawn up.....hope H had a good lunch with his "lunch partner" today.....
feelrealempty Posted October 22, 2009 Posted October 22, 2009 Trippi , goodluck and very happy for you moving foward! I'll update tonight on my own post. Hope all is well........... Hugs :-)
Author trippi1432 Posted October 22, 2009 Author Posted October 22, 2009 Trippi , goodluck and very happy for you moving foward! I'll update tonight on my own post. Hope all is well........... Hugs :-) It's getting there...I still have my stressful moments....and I kick myself in the ass for sometimes missing him....then I remember the stress when he was here and it makes it better I guess. I'll catch up on your thread.
Gunny376 Posted October 23, 2009 Posted October 23, 2009 *Yawn* Tired. Thanks for making me laugh and smile!
Author trippi1432 Posted October 23, 2009 Author Posted October 23, 2009 Thanks for making me laugh and smile! Look at the night owl!
Author trippi1432 Posted October 23, 2009 Author Posted October 23, 2009 Wrong Baby Wrong: Martina McBride http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dGpij3LY-Nc
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