bluewolf17 Posted July 18, 2009 Posted July 18, 2009 I don't know, today I just felt like being close to my ex. I wanted to see his face, read his words. I unblocked him from Facebook so I could look at his public profile. I feel like such a stalker! It could have been worst. He's still "single". No girls talking to him, just his friends. In fact, I don't think he is on it much. When we dated he was, and after we broke up and were still "friends" he logged in all the time. Since I have blocked him he never updates anything..but I am sure I am reading to much into it. Then I re-blocked him. Today was okay, but eventually I will see somthing that will break my heart. I can't do that again. I keep thinking that eventually he will get ahold of me. But we have been broken up 6 months, and I enforced NC for 9 days now. I have never made it past 3 weeks NC, but that is my goal now. I am ready to not think about him anymore. Today I went horseback riding, and I gotta go shower and get ready to head to the beach with my roomates and 8 other friends. Beach volleyball, a BBQ, lots of drinking and sun, and a great beach house. I am very excited. My life feels more and more like it's "resetting". I don't feel so weird waking up each day and doing what i want, with who I want, and knowing I won't see him today, tommorow, or the next day. It's just all knew. I was scared of that at first, but now I am excited.
Exit Posted July 18, 2009 Posted July 18, 2009 Yup, you may want to stop looking while you're ahead. Last night I had the pleasure of finding my ex's new BF on facebook. In tears right now as I'm still trying to deal with it. Somewhat glad that I saw it, but of course it hurts. It is good that you are going out and having fun. Don't worry about setting goals like 3 weeks of NC, take it one day a time. Tomorrow will be here tomorrow and the day after the day after, no need to worry about them now. Just know that you will not contact today.
tkgirl Posted July 18, 2009 Posted July 18, 2009 I don't know, today I just felt like being close to my ex. I wanted to see his face, read his words. I unblocked him from Facebook so I could look at his public profile. I feel like such a stalker! It could have been worst. He's still "single". No girls talking to him, just his friends. In fact, I don't think he is on it much. When we dated he was, and after we broke up and were still "friends" he logged in all the time. Since I have blocked him he never updates anything..but I am sure I am reading to much into it. Then I re-blocked him. Today was okay, but eventually I will see somthing that will break my heart. I can't do that again. I keep thinking that eventually he will get ahold of me. But we have been broken up 6 months, and I enforced NC for 9 days now. I have never made it past 3 weeks NC, but that is my goal now. I am ready to not think about him anymore. Today I went horseback riding, and I gotta go shower and get ready to head to the beach with my roomates and 8 other friends. Beach volleyball, a BBQ, lots of drinking and sun, and a great beach house. I am very excited. My life feels more and more like it's "resetting". I don't feel so weird waking up each day and doing what i want, with who I want, and knowing I won't see him today, tommorow, or the next day. It's just all knew. I was scared of that at first, but now I am excited. wow! what a great day you are having.. first horseback riding and then the beach with friends focus on that... you are moving forward with your life and it sounds like you have a great one! I understand the "cyberstalking" and wanting to know what's going on with the ex.. dang facebook! How did you block him and then unblock him? I did the same thing with my ex... well, I actually removed him from my friends list and now I can't add him without sending him a "friend request" Ah well, it's probably better... even though we are "friends" in "real life" now and even spent the better part of last weekend together. Anyho.. you are doing great... it can be like an addiction though, so you just take NC one day at a time... heck, sometimes even one minute at a time! hang in there!
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