moo Posted July 15, 2009 Posted July 15, 2009 I fell asleep this afternoon and dreamt that I was going to call my ex and ask him back. When I woke up I told my roommate I wanted to call my ex and he convinced me not to call him. He told me how selfish and mean he is and I agreed and I did not call him. Besides, I'm back on the wagon again and today makes the 7th straight day I'm doing NC after breaking NC before, so I'm on my way. When I was seeing my ex I was pretty much alone in the relationship. I would have dreams that I was in trouble and I tried to call him but could never get through to him. Towards the end of the relationship I also wondered if my life would be in danger around him. He was extremely self-centered and selfish and I started to wonder if I was in a situation, let's say, a fire had broken out while we were sleeping, would he rescue me or just run out or leave me in there? I really, seriously thought about that because he is extremely selfish. Last year, I thought he was my hero. I realize now that was because the relationship was new and he was on "his best behavior." :-(
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