aloneanddepressed Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 As many others on here, I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I can't go to sleep until after 3am for the past week. I dream about this guy I was seeing, and wake up with this huge knot in my stomach. The anxiety I have is horrible. Well, I already have anxiety in general, and this has very much worsened it. Its been almost two and a half weeks since I spoke or have seen my ex bf. Also, I just found out a week ago, he was done with me. He never told me, just never talked to me again after this argument we had. Also, recently I discovered this picture of him at some club, sitting with girls at a table. I'm assuming they are just friends, but right. I bet he is at the club trying to pick up girls already! Why did I look at this?? Its really getting to me. I seem to be so interested in what he is doing. Has he moved on, does he think about me anymore, what? Not to mention, at the moment, I feel people are being so INSENSITIVE to my feelings. My own mother asked me "are you going to stay upset forever?", "how long are you going be upset". What in the world?! Like I have a decision as to when I stop feeling the pain? Its like people don't get it who haven't been hurt! She seems to be aggravated because I won't go out with this new guy that I used to work with. I told her I'm not ready to date or for that matter even talk to another guy, but she doesn't seem to get it. I feel like I'm about to explode!! I feel I'm being blamed for hurting like this. Its not my fault. I tried to explain how it just typically takes some time to get past these things. I don't know what it is, but I feel even more guilt like I'm obligated to go out with this other guy, just because some MORON gave my number to them without my knowledge. I'm praying tonight he is not calling me back, cause I don't want to talk to him nor go out on a date. Why can't people understand this? Well, I needed to vent, thanks for listening. Anyone who else feels the same feel free to respond!
broken_promises Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 As many others on here, I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I can't go to sleep until after 3am for the past week. I dream about this guy I was seeing, and wake up with this huge knot in my stomach. The anxiety I have is horrible. Well, I already have anxiety in general, and this has very much worsened it. Its been almost two and a half weeks since I spoke or have seen my ex bf. Also, I just found out a week ago, he was done with me. He never told me, just never talked to me again after this argument we had. Also, recently I discovered this picture of him at some club, sitting with girls at a table. I'm assuming they are just friends, but right. I bet he is at the club trying to pick up girls already! Why did I look at this?? Its really getting to me. I seem to be so interested in what he is doing. Has he moved on, does he think about me anymore, what? I'm in nearly the same timeline/boat as you (although I did expect the breakup and even initiated the conversation that I thought we were breaking up.) It has been 2-1/2 weeks and I have looked at a couple of things that prove my ex is definitely moving on to new people and activities. Not to mention, he hasn't called me so that speaks volumes. The anxiety is HORRIBLE. Some days I just want to call him and let my guard down and be who I really am and other days I can stay strong in my conviction that we just didn't bring out the best in each other and if it is that easy for him to not contact me and move on, then I shouldn't be pining over him. As for the "get over it" thing, I feel like a few of my friends are getting sick of me being in this place. But again, that is because I have been thinking things were going south since last fall and they can't understand if I knew this was coming and wasn't happy and brought up the breakup to him, why I am not suddenly just over him. I'm sorry you have to go through this. Breakups really, really suck.
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