brokenglass Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 I don't even know where to begin...I'll try to keep it brief. The past two weeks; my ex takes a trip to New Jersey and meets a man she's been playing video games with over Xbox Live for quite some time now. Shes now in love and wants to move my son up there. She is also under the impression that her and I are so friendly that I want to hear about it and also talk to him to clear the air. Last Tuesday I get a skin infection, develop a fever and it hits 103 degrees as I'm driving, I get into a car accident. The car is still in her name, as well as the insurance (which I pay for). She isn't upset as she knows I was sick, but wants to make sure I pay for whatever and that it doesn't get tarnished on her insurance (not sure how I'm going to pull that off). She informs me yesterday that her new boyfriend will be in town Thursday. This is making me extremely anxious. I've been talking to a girl I met a few weeks ago, really nice foreign girl that just moved to town. Apparently, I find out yesterday my roommate took her out to a movie, then to dinner. I come home and they are cuddling on my couch. He was WELL aware that I liked her. Despite being moved into a cheaper place, I still don't have any money. My car is falling apart, I need new clothes (I've lost well over 100lbs since this whole ordeal), etc. I miss my son terribly and want to see him more often, but my schedule doesn't allow me to see him as much as I'd like. Not to mention she lives on the other side of the city, which makes it worse considering gas is so high and my car is a piece of crap. I also have to pay her for the car within a month or two. She wants $400, which I don't have (I still have to pay my taxes, I have this car accident looming over my head now, etc.) So to make a long story short, my ex has officially moved on, complete with status updates listed as "in a relationship" and all of that bull****. I am broke despite not having nearly as much bills as I did. My roommate is stealing girls that I am interested in and being a general dick about it. My self-esteem is starting to plummet again. My self worth is starting to plummet and I am increasingly feeling like nothing is worth it anymore. I'm never going to win, I'm never going to succeed and I am sure as hell never going to be happy. I feel like I am running out of options (again).
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