imakemistakes Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 I am not her soul mate though. She has found someone else. Why God, why did you make soul mates for everyone but me. Do you hate me that much, am I that terrible that you have forsaken me to a lifetime of pain and misery... She was everything in the world to me... and I ****ed it up. Her smile, her little annoyances (her little happy dance), her vulnerability. I wanted to protect her. And yet I caused her a lot of pain. I ****ed everything up... again. And here I am now, alone, in a library typing out my frustration. A solitary wanderer who has lost all semblence... a protector, who would do anything for her, but could never get her back. She is no longer my loveable, and I am so ****ed it's not funny. In the end, she will have her happy ending, with somebody else, while I will still be here typing... alone. ****.
Author imakemistakes Posted July 14, 2009 Author Posted July 14, 2009 You people don't care though. You'd rather think about "mixed messages", "cheating", "how do I ask out a girl" topics. I am baring my soul here. Can't you understand how ****ed I am? What does a person do when God hates them? How do you fix that?
utterer of lies Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 There are a few ways. The first one is the one you're on, wallowing in self-pity and making yourself miserable while blaming the world, god, fate or whatever. It's not a very productive path, but you seem to have invested yourself into it heavily already... You could also try to submit yourself to some religion or cult. Many people find that dealing with personal problems and pain is much easier if they focus on other people's teachings and convince themselves that it's all part of a grand plan. The king's path would be to just get a grip on yourself and get your life back in order. But of course, that's not for everyone.
Author imakemistakes Posted July 14, 2009 Author Posted July 14, 2009 There are a few ways. The first one is the one you're on, wallowing in self-pity and making yourself miserable while blaming the world, god, fate or whatever. It's not a very productive path, but you seem to have invested yourself into it heavily already... You could also try to submit yourself to some religion or cult. Many people find that dealing with personal problems and pain is much easier if they focus on other people's teachings and convince themselves that it's all part of a grand plan. The king's path would be to just get a grip on yourself and get your life back in order. But of course, that's not for everyone. I can't get it back together. I ****ED IT UP. SHE IS GONE. EVERYONE IS GONE. I am alone. HOW DO I GET EVERYONE BACK? I ****ED IT UP. ****.
Bejita463 Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 HOW DO I GET EVERYONE BACK? I ****ED IT UP. Delicious cake?
utterer of lies Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 Delicious cake? Or maybe he's more the guy for copious amounts of drugs, alcohol and meds. Or suicide? Or maybe just... Ah it doesn't matter. He made up his mind that he must suffer. I guess we should just let him to his suffering and desperation, and wait for some more of his posts full of censored words and ALLCAPS.
Els Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 I feel your pain. Give it a few days, though, seriously. Who knows what the future will hold? I'm speaking as one who has had 3 bfs and who truly thought the first was her soulmate.. and then her 2nd one... etc Maybe you'll find your REAL soulmate soon, as impossible as it sounds now!
13arkansas Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 You're in a pit of self pity at the moment - the sooner you get out of that the better. And stop having a pop at all the posters on here!
Thaddeus Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 Let's get serious for a minute here and establish some facts (as I see them) first: There is no such thing as a soul mate. Full stop. God, however you perceive it, could not be less interested in the love lives of human beings. You're in pain because of the loss, so some degree of self-pity isn't unexpected. But if you allow it, it will swallow your entire world. So don't let it. Nobody likes to spend time around someone who's constantly depressed. Staying social is a good way to get out of your current funk as long as you keep those depressive tendencies in check around others. You will get through this. We all have. You're no different.
lino Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 I don't believe in soul mates. I did once but I don't anymore. I know how you feel though, women have been leaving me for better guys my whole life
prettybaby Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 Uhm, so what's the story exactly? How can we give you any advise if you don't even tell us what happened?
espec10001 Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 I suspect you are very young and haven't learned this yet. Emotions do a man no good. When we're emotional we have no control. Do you enjoy giving control of your thoughts to your emotions? Confidence is knowledge, not feeling. Look at what all this emotion has got you, a dribbling mess and unable to form coherent thoughts. You have chosen to give your thoughts to wild sadness and melancholy. Stop it immediately or the world will whip you with its displeasure over and over again until you learn that emotion is poison to a man. Trying to find something in a female that simply isn't there will destroy you.
MusicChick24 Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 I am not her soul mate though. She has found someone else. Why God, why did you make soul mates for everyone but me. Do you hate me that much, am I that terrible that you have forsaken me to a lifetime of pain and misery... She was everything in the world to me... and I ****ed it up. Her smile, her little annoyances (her little happy dance), her vulnerability. I wanted to protect her. And yet I caused her a lot of pain. I ****ed everything up... again. And here I am now, alone, in a library typing out my frustration. A solitary wanderer who has lost all semblence... a protector, who would do anything for her, but could never get her back. She is no longer my loveable, and I am so ****ed it's not funny. In the end, she will have her happy ending, with somebody else, while I will still be here typing... alone. ****. You probably won't believe this but I've always been a firm believer that NO ONE loses there soulmate...so if you lost this woman. She is not your soulmate.
utterer of lies Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 I suspect you are very young and haven't learned this yet. Emotions do a man no good. I must disagree. Emotions are great, and repressing them won't make you a better man. Where did you learn that? :/ When we're emotional we have no control. Do you enjoy giving control of your thoughts to your emotions? Confidence is knowledge, not feeling. Look at what all this emotion has got you, a dribbling mess and unable to form coherent thoughts. You have chosen to give your thoughts to wild sadness and melancholy. Stop it immediately or the world will whip you with its displeasure over and over again until you learn that emotion is poison to a man. You sound bitter and emotionally unhealthy.
espec10001 Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 I must disagree. Emotions are great, and repressing them won't make you a better man. Where did you learn that? :/ You sound bitter and emotionally unhealthy. Emotions come and go, some strong some weak. When our mental state as men reaches a new height, we can CONTROL the emotion, not the other way around. Bitter and emotionally unhealthy I am not. It is unhealthy to sway to whatever way your emotion swings you, you are not in control. This is why women pms and cry and get emotional and can be nasty sometimes and you don't understand why because they can't control their emotions. We as men, can, there is absolutely nothing unhealthy or bitter about it.
Bejita463 Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 Emotions come and go, some strong some weak. When our mental state as men reaches a new height, we can CONTROL the emotion, not the other way around. Bitter and emotionally unhealthy I am not. It is unhealthy to sway to whatever way your emotion swings you, you are not in control. This is why women pms and cry and get emotional and can be nasty sometimes and you don't understand why because they can't control their emotions. We as men, can, there is absolutely nothing unhealthy or bitter about it. There is a difference between repressing emotions and controlling them. The statement that emotions do a man no good seems to suggest that you believe males should repress their emotions, which is what UoL seems to have taken issue with. If that IS what you meant, it IS emotionally unhealthy.
Left in a Lurch Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 I am curious why you keep blaming God but also say you ****ed it up. Are you blaming God because you made mistakes? Last time I checked, God doesn't make you do things, you have free will. Is it God's responsibility to make every person perfect and mistake free? How will you ever learn if every time you make a mistake you blame someone else? Did you expect God would make your mistakes just magically go away and if he didn't, he must not love you? How about bearing your soul and saying you made a mistake, how can you learn to never make the same type mistakes again? That way you'll grow and learn. Blaming God, you'll just make the same mistakes over and over and sit around wondering why he isn't covering for your mistakes. Learn how to make responsible choices and think through the consequences of your actions ahead of time and your problem is solved. If you don't try to learn from this and become better at making choices, you will be doomed to repeat your misery. You have an opportunity here to grow, take it. Don't piss it away on self pity.
Author imakemistakes Posted July 15, 2009 Author Posted July 15, 2009 I am curious why you keep blaming God but also say you ****ed it up. Are you blaming God because you made mistakes? Last time I checked, God doesn't make you do things, you have free will. Is it God's responsibility to make every person perfect and mistake free? How will you ever learn if every time you make a mistake you blame someone else? Did you expect God would make your mistakes just magically go away and if he didn't, he must not love you? How about bearing your soul and saying you made a mistake, how can you learn to never make the same type mistakes again? That way you'll grow and learn. Blaming God, you'll just make the same mistakes over and over and sit around wondering why he isn't covering for your mistakes. Learn how to make responsible choices and think through the consequences of your actions ahead of time and your problem is solved. If you don't try to learn from this and become better at making choices, you will be doomed to repeat your misery. You have an opportunity here to grow, take it. Don't piss it away on self pity. God isn't saving me from my own mistakes. ****, why does everything always turn to ****. WHY Mr. Hero? Why do I always ruin things for myself and then regret them?
utterer of lies Posted July 15, 2009 Posted July 15, 2009 God isn't saving me from my own mistakes. ****, why does everything always turn to ****. Because of you. Why do I always ruin things for myself and then regret them? So you can wallow in self-pity and write long diatribes of self-loathing.
ON MY OWN Posted July 15, 2009 Posted July 15, 2009 Simply know you are better than pain. I am sorry for you suffering, for I too have suffered plenty of nights. My tears will maybe never be over when I think back. My ex fiance promised me the moon and in the end all I got was a trip back to my home state after falling head over heels and being emotionally invested. Know what I did? Pulled myself up by my bootstraps, got tired of suffering and feeling pathetic and giving him power to go back and forth so I made a stance...packed up and left...I had to leave him...hardest thing I ever had to do. I thought I was dying. I took control and am feeling better, not great, I wont lie, but little by little it DOES get better. I promise and if for some reason its not please see a counselor. My :love:heart goes out to you.... OMO ( ps...I went from mom to omo, i had to also leave the kids I came to love and know as my own. ) Speakin of them its a whole other pain thats more intense than that one...
Author imakemistakes Posted July 15, 2009 Author Posted July 15, 2009 Simply know you are better than pain. I am sorry for you suffering, for I too have suffered plenty of nights. My tears will maybe never be over when I think back. My ex fiance promised me the moon and in the end all I got was a trip back to my home state after falling head over heels and being emotionally invested. Know what I did? Pulled myself up by my bootstraps, got tired of suffering and feeling pathetic and giving him power to go back and forth so I made a stance...packed up and left...I had to leave him...hardest thing I ever had to do. I thought I was dying. I took control and am feeling better, not great, I wont lie, but little by little it DOES get better. I promise and if for some reason its not please see a counselor. My :love:heart goes out to you.... OMO ( ps...I went from mom to omo, i had to also leave the kids I came to love and know as my own. ) Speakin of them its a whole other pain thats more intense than that one... Nobody cares though. The majority of the world is inhabited by happy peons who revel in their own bull**** daily exercises in futility while I'm watching Rome burn. I'm ****ing isolated right now. I can't escape and I'm hurting. All everyone says is, "get over it". Well **** off peons, how do you get over the fact that your life is ****ED. Screwed. Gone. Destroyed. ****ED. What does someone do when they've lost everything? They can't rebuild if everything is gone. All they can do is stoically let the pain spread over them like waves.
Bejita463 Posted July 15, 2009 Posted July 15, 2009 All they can do is stoically let the pain spread over them like waves. That is only one of many options. You just don't have any interest in the other options. I don't think you are going to get the sympathy party you seem to be going for buddy. You're sad. We get it. Is there something you wanted? Advice? Someone to listen? What? I don't understand what you are aiming for here.
Author imakemistakes Posted July 15, 2009 Author Posted July 15, 2009 That is only one of many options. You just don't have any interest in the other options. I don't think you are going to get the sympathy party you seem to be going for buddy. You're sad. We get it. Is there something you wanted? Advice? Someone to listen? What? I don't understand what you are aiming for here. I want to go back in time and not **** up. I want God to take pity on me and fix my ****ed-up life. I just want to be happy, is that too much to ask for.
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