bitteorca Posted July 13, 2009 Posted July 13, 2009 one week of NC today. Thought I'd just write it out here. Not sure how I feel. Having a bad day today. I'm questioning my decision but maybe that's natural, plus given my situation. I hope she comes round at some point I just know she needs time. I don't doubt that I'll speak to her at some point again, when I don't know
Soul Bear Posted July 13, 2009 Posted July 13, 2009 i remember week 1.....im on week 4 now.... whatever you do, stay NC. I still question my NC descision once every few days, sometimes i get the urge to break it, but a nano second later i come to my senses.You will have bad days and good days, the longer you go NC i have realised, the good days out number the bad. on bad days i cry a little for half the day and feel sorry for myself, but things start looking up again...always I hope she comes round at some point I just know she needs time. I don't doubt that I'll speak to her at some point again, when I don't know Aint that the truth- but another truth...the longer you NC the more you will NOT want to break it. I want her to break it just so I can ignore it hope this helps you
Author bitteorca Posted July 14, 2009 Author Posted July 14, 2009 Thanks soulbear Yeah I was just having a weak moment. I know I need to stick to it. Not to teach her a lesson or anything like that, if you read my past posts u'll understand, but just to leave the situation alone for a good while. That's whats needed, for her and I suppose me. I meant about speaking to her again, not in a break NC way, but just know that I'll hear from her again at some point. Hopefully I'll be alright by then! Hope you're doing ok
adamt Posted July 14, 2009 Posted July 14, 2009 The first 2 weeks are the hardest. I felt i would cry whenever i talked about it. Quesrions were going round my head all the time. I hardly slept or ate. That feeling of waking up then you remember she left you and it hits you again. My work suffered because i couldnt think straight. My short term memory went and i became forgetful because i couldnt think about anything else. I felt i had no energy to do anything. By going NC you learn to deal with it and control your emotions. When i got into the 3rd week i decided i cant let it bring me down, I forced myself to join the gym and start to fill up my time so i was busy. The gym has made a difference. Something to focus on,fill up my time and now 6 weeks later i am starting to notice physical improvements. I'm starting to get into physical activities and looking to get into moutain biking. All i can say is find something that you can focus on that interests you. If possible do things that involve people. It is hard at first to find the motivation but push yourself to do it. It feels like the longest summer ever. I'm still waking up at 5.30-6am.
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