iNdespaiR Posted July 12, 2009 Posted July 12, 2009 its been almost 2 mos of NC.. helped me a lot.. crying times lessen or should i say gone.. i was dumped by bf while im pregnant, he sent money twice since the break up, thanked him.. at present i am on my 5th month (goin to sixth).. i know in my heart i am really ok, strong and thinking really positively.. cant say that i am happy and contented but i know that somethin is missin.. missed those times we are together, but i have decided to leave yesterday behind.. as i go on with my life i dont know what the future brings but i know now that i have to focus on my child, i know that i can be a good parent although im single.. i hate false hopes, that why i am preventing my self from it but sometimes i cant help it, hes the father of my child, the love is still there but i have to cope with it.. righyt now i dont know how i feel.. except that the hurt i felt was lessen, i know it was not completely removed.. NC, posting on LS really helped.. at first everyday is a survival day but as time goes by it is slowly healing.. the pain is still there but i am avoiding myself on looking back on those times we've been through.. i was dumped at the times i needed help, instead givin me moral support he threw me down, gave me pain, which was bad for a pregnant woman.. i survived, its just a break up not end of the world.. so you guys out there who are dumped, just go NC and get healed.. i am not hoping for him to come or be there for the child, i am ready with the consequences because there's nothing i can do, the only choice i had was to accept things, hold on with my life, my baby.. cant say that i was that strong because right after the break up, i cried, beg and plead but still get dumped.. that heartless bastard.. now i am moving on, feeling ok, having some great future plans, i know i am on the right path.. ive done this with help of NC, helped me with myself, not my ex on comin back... wanna thank guys who helped me and given me support on this site.. just go NC, it will get better in time.. take it from me..
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