Bought him a birthday present..mainly venting.

[heatherb16]

We have been broken up for 3 weeks now. Had a little bit of NC, but not much. Enough to make me hurt. I'm still not over him, yet I'm pretty sure he is over me, for now. I guess this is a little deeper then simply how I bought him a birthday present. I'm just very confused. When we were about to break up, he started talking about how maybe in a few years we would work out. But immediately I was rude, and said, NO, we will NOT try this again. If you were to ever ask for me back I would probably have to slap you across the face. But deep deep down, I knew that wasn't the case. I was just angry with him. I hope I didn't turn him away. So I'm not exactly sure what he wants. I know, for now, there is no him and me. But what about later? I don't want to ask him, because I don't want to sound needy or anything. Anyways, when I broke NC we started texting quite a bit. We got into an argument about something silly- this also happened after we broke up. I started to worry that we could never be friends. But I now realize that it's all in my head. I MUST stop blaming him for our break-up, as well as myself. I HAVE to realize that, for now, he is finished with me, and move on with my life. Now...What do I do? I feel as if I don't need to break contact with him anymore. Maybe I will change my mind, but as of now, that is not what I want. I want us to move on, and become friends. I want us to be happy and I NEED myself to let go of the blame, which I have to tell myself every day. I've learned that I need to stop bringing up our relationship when we talk, because it just makes it difficult on both of us. I've learned a lot from myself, him, and us. I feel like I am ready for this. If we are going to have a future, at all, then I HAVE to stop the blame. So, onto my question, now that you know where I stand. For his last birthday I bought him a George Strait signed Record Album. Today, I went out and bought this really cool frame meant JUST for a record album that displays it nicely, that I saw a few weeks ago in the store. I didn't think twice. I just ran out and bought it. Only spent about 20 dollars on it, and went and got him a card too. Nothing romantic, just something to give to him to wish him a Happy Birthday and let him know that I still care, and always will. I can still return it. But I'm still not sure. I have about a week and a half to decide, but I need some help. What should I do?