moo Posted July 7, 2009 Posted July 7, 2009 Usually I am on here only at night. However, today is a very emotional morning. I just cried and cried this morning. Things come up and I keep telling myself I need to send my ex an email and bitch to him: when I read self-help books about coping thru what he did to me, when people give me advice, when the pain is extra bad, etc. I'm trying to stay strong with the NC...today is the 15th consecutive day and counting, but I don't how long I can stay strong.
Lostgurl Posted July 7, 2009 Posted July 7, 2009 Just keep busy Moo! and keep posting too, that always helps
New_life Posted July 7, 2009 Posted July 7, 2009 I agree with lostgurl, as I too am feeling like that today in the morning. Keep posting here... keep strong
starrienite Posted July 7, 2009 Posted July 7, 2009 Hi! You did the right thing by posting here. Do NOT contact him! You can do it. Stay busy with other things, work, tv, computer, friends - anything you can. I stopped crying after 4 days when I realized that he probably wasn't sitting around crying over me. That was a real eye opener. Never, ever cry over someone who wouldn't cry over you.
Lyssa Posted July 7, 2009 Posted July 7, 2009 Moo, it's one of those days. It shall pass! Stay strong!
Author moo Posted July 7, 2009 Author Posted July 7, 2009 I just had a huge crying fit and geared up to contacting him by email. I cried and I cried. After that, I could hear and feel stomach acid pouring into my stomach. I'm also being a burden on my roommate bcause I've been crying for several weeks now. I feel that if I don't get myself together, I am going to get an ulcer. That is a wake-up call. I am not crying right now and I'm not going to contact him. I just want him to apologize what the way he treated me...but he thinks he is justified to treat me like dirt. I have to accept that he treated me this way. What choice do I have? If I call him and aks for an apology and I don't get one, all the scars will open up. I think they will open up anyway even if I don't ask for an apology. I guess I will just have to suffer through the pain.
Lostgurl Posted July 7, 2009 Posted July 7, 2009 Don't call Moo. It will just give him more power. You don't want that. Keep it. Just keep posting and tomorrow will be better.
Lyssa Posted July 7, 2009 Posted July 7, 2009 but he thinks he is justified to treat me like dirt. That is enough to make you hate him! Geez.. he sounds like a piece of work! Don't contact him AT ALL - NO MATTER WHAT, Moo. He's not worth it! Keep posting. I have seen some posters on here that keep posting and it seems to help them. Oh and go get that voodoo doll .
ryanrabl Posted July 7, 2009 Posted July 7, 2009 we can be NC buddies!I am on my third week and things are settling down!
Author moo Posted July 7, 2009 Author Posted July 7, 2009 yes, I would like that. I just broke NC. I know it will probably do more harm than good. I am trying. But I am only human. He wasn't there anyway. I left a message. I'm ready to get back on the NC wagon. I really do need a NC buddy. How does this work?
Thomas X Forever Posted July 7, 2009 Posted July 7, 2009 You're only human? STRIVE TO BE BETTER! Never speak to him again
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