Els Posted July 2, 2009 Posted July 2, 2009 When you feel like throwing everything to the wind and just going to your SO right NOW, leaving all obligations and practicality aside? And then you realize that if you do that, you or both of you will be screwed for the future... and thus you get depressed because you feel the need to do something, anything, about the distance, but just can't? Hope I'm not going crazy or something.
sunflower89 Posted July 2, 2009 Posted July 2, 2009 I'm having one of those months. Trust me, I know how you feel <3
Author Els Posted July 2, 2009 Author Posted July 2, 2009 Thanks. PMS and LDRs just SO totally do not belong together. I envy guys sometimes.
Bearandsue Posted July 2, 2009 Posted July 2, 2009 I know what you are talking about...I morph into a completely different person when its PMS time.
Island Girl Posted July 2, 2009 Posted July 2, 2009 I have felt like that since his interview when we found out that particular copy they need can take another YEAR. Ever since then I have a feeling that I just wish I could pick up and go there and screw this whole immigration crap. But I know there are no jobs and we'd live a life much different than that we will have by just sticking it out. But I am so so so so so so so so so so so DAMN TIRED OF THIS! I feel like this immigration crap has beat me up - literally. It is a bit of a rut. And I just can't get myself back together. Of course I am still holding on and will continue to do so but I feel like I dropped down a couple of levels and that is my new normal. Is that how it is Elswyth? If so it does totally suck.
Rollercoasterr Posted July 2, 2009 Posted July 2, 2009 I feel like this about every 5 minutes or so. I just have this horrible urge to just drop everything, get in my car and not stop until I'm in Montreal(or until I need gas, lol. My spectra has a small tank!). I just miss him and love him so much. And we've been fighting lately. Yesterday was a bad day. We got into an argument over where we're going to live after we're married and about how frustrated I was that it felt like he hadn't been helping me in planning this wedding OR this move. I said things I shouldn't have, and I know it's because I miss him so much that I get frustrated. Everything starts to fall down around me. While I AM a bit frustrated over that, I know that this is only temporary. He wants this wedding just as much as I do, and I think that it's that bride thing kicking in where I'm ready to start planning our life together, and then my refusal to do any of it without his input and making decisions TOGETHER. Those 2 things sorta clash a bit, lol. If I were a crazy bridezilla, I wouldn't care. I'd make all the decisions without him. But I want it to be our wedding and not just mine. But today is our one year anniversary that we've been back together. It's been the best day of my life, but I just wish he was here so bad I can't stand it. I'm ready to see him already!
hoping2heal Posted July 2, 2009 Posted July 2, 2009 Oh yes. In a sense it's only a few more months, but there is so much to be done on both of our ends to make it happen. I feel like I never do enough in a day to reach the goal, but I guess I have made a lot of strides at the same time, really. What I miss the most is talking. We spend time together, but it isn't the same. He's so busy, and HAS to be, it isn't as if he's choosing it this way, and I know that. He works so hard it's unbelievable. It will be worth it though when I will be there and we can talk and spend time . He makes time for me every day in the best fashion that he knows how, and I'm extremely greatful for it. I know I'm very lucky compared to what some others get. But yeah . Boy do I love that man.
Author Els Posted July 3, 2009 Author Posted July 3, 2009 Is that how it is Elswyth? If so it does totally suck. Totally! Several times I had to almost physically restrain myself from just resigning from university and packing my stuff. Doesn't help that I don't really like my course and my coursemates are from very different backgrounds as me so I don't really have a reason to want to stay. I'm ready to see him already! So am I!! Every single day. Also, luck has it that his course usually gets busier during my PMS period... but then again that lasts 1-2 weeks so the chances of him being very busy at least sometime during that time is rather high.
Lovin a scrapper Posted July 3, 2009 Posted July 3, 2009 I do know what all of you mean. Sometimes I just want to pack up and get to Oregon with her but then luckily common sense kicks in and I just have to remain patient because it will be well worth it to stay with the plan. I can say that the closer it gets to my moving date (October) the more I just want to throw caution to the wind and leave. If I have bad days at work etc. I tell myself why go through this when I can be a happy happy boy with being there with her. Luckily she will be here for a two week visit starting on the 3rd of August and her daughters are going to fly up for a portion of that visit and Im so stoked about that. I have texted and talked to them on the phone but this is gonna be very special time for us with their visit. :bunny: Rollercoasterr, it seems like when Rayette and I fight it is always when we dont get to talk to each other like we usually do. Times like when I go back to Oklahoma to visit friends and family and things like that or she goes to visit her mom or has a scrapbook convention. We just simply take it out on each other but fortunately we figured that out and have worked on that big league and it seems to have worked itself out.
Faded Posted July 6, 2009 Posted July 6, 2009 I'm in one of those funks now. I want to just show up and take her away forever. I hate leaving her. It's unexplainable. I don't think I could come close to putting it into words.
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