ON MY OWN Posted June 29, 2009 Posted June 29, 2009 This is the first day of the rest of my life. It is a brand new beginning I am starting and I am looking forward to many happy days ahead. I packed up what was left in the place me and my ex-fiance called our home together. I got an in state DL again. I have my old spark back. I am starting to feel like my old self too!! My ex bought engagement ring, then wedding ring, we were going to marry in September. He broke it off while my wedding ring was being sized. He is engaged to a woman he met 2 months ago and they will marry in September....SAME PLANS...DIFFERENT BRIDE ( 11 years younger )...now I have heard of switching things around...but the bride...how silly!!! She must have a pretty low level of respect for herself to be able to do that to another woman, my stuff wasnt even out of our home and they were planning their wedding, whats the rush, I think shes pregnant, more children to raise disfunctionally, wow. It truly breaks my heart. Better her than me!!! His kids are the ones who get hurt the worst...the 7 year old called me mommy, dont you think she would be slightly confused??? I miss her the most!! ( I love you Lu ) I truly now know the meaning of a broken heart, but it is mending fast. Notice up top I used improper grammer and put me first before my ex..thats because I come first now. Mistake we all make along the way forgetting to take care of ourselves. I am looking forward to the next chapter in my life. If he bothers to try and get me back at any givne point the door is permanentlty closed. I want better for myself than living in a house of disarray and around disfunctional people/family. Good luck to them both for the kids sake!!! I will make a better life for myself. I deserve it amd for the record he doesnt deserve a person as nice as me anyhow. Thanks for reading as this was an EXTREMELY difficult chapter for me to close as they were ALREADY my family in my heart and I had to close that out. I have definitely closed that chapter and am excited about new beginnings!!! Good luck to all in life and in love!! I am so much stronger from this, even though I am not going to lie, I still cry, but I feel better for it. I can rest peacefully at night and with God as I know I didnt have any wrong doing in this and I am truly a good person in the heart. Funny thing is my ex practices martial arts and I thought in martial arts they taught honor and respect...hmmmm....things that make you go hmmmm!!! I hope somewhere out there someone can learn from my situation, I know I sure did!! I pray for them. They will need it!! For me, I am the strong one here. Thanks everyone who followed my story for your kind words, definitely therapeutic and fully appreciated...my life is going on...no more "on holds". I didnt ever have anyone do that to me and didnt realize what that was. Now I know and never again will I do that. I have a full understanding looking at it objectively. Have a nice life, I say that to them!! Good bye! TY, I needed to truly say that and get it out. Peace and love and may all of you have the best relationships and I pray healing on everyone!!!! ~ OMO ~
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