Soul Bear Posted June 27, 2009 Posted June 27, 2009 A suitcase I have in a room not ventured for an age A suitcase of memories that brings heartache to the surface The clothing and cards, the photos of better days Why did I have to find this suitcase today.... A suitcase I have in a room not ventured for an age, A suitcase of memories that bring tears to these eyes, Hopes and dreams of better days, tears roll down this face, I have no grace today. We talked of marriage and kids, even an Island too, If such sweet sorrow could be put into words, Five years of bliss, just me and you hearts and souls would fly like the birds, A suitcase I have, that still brings me sadness, As i try to move on but all seems like madness, when will the hope fade away into nothing, when will my heart feel for another again, You can be sure that this Bear's soul will rise once again Dreaming of years and years down the line, Hoping together our hearts will again find, That one true love we all have in this life, That one soul for which you would give your own life Im leaving today, I venture to a new land, far away from the love that has found a new hand, to hold in the darkness,the light and the same, will my heart ever feel complete again... As I see the suitcase of memories I have, I didnt know my heart still felt this sad, I guess in hiding and pretending all's well, It only takes one thing to re awaken that swell, Of flooding memories I hold so deep, You're the only one I want to still keep, If only I had paid more attention to my actions, If only you had talked to me and told me your pain, I know that we could have been two of the same, A picture can tell a thousand words, You should see this suitcase, its just obserd Why be so cold and hurtful to make me sad, Why say to be free do you then jump again, There's no anger or bitterness in my heart, So why be like this as you decide to depart. Head over heals, in at the deep end, Talk about pain and feeling replaced So easily how could you do it right to my face I gave you my heart, my sould and my life, Everyone has troubles and worry and strife, So few get through it, and as far as we did, I only hope its no mistake that you did what you did, As it stands my life is running full steam, Shattered and broken from you throwing our dream The times we were so sure are truly confusing, I remember them well and its all come to light, A mistake we will both regret the rest of our lives Throwing away what was bound for the sky, above and beyond, not what, but why, I hope that your happy and loving your life, I hope that your saddened by the way you made an exit, I hope that 10 years, will pass us by, I hope that once again we will sparkle upon high I hope that you remember the many good times we had, I hope that you learn the value of true love, for its not easy to have unconditionally. We traveled the world, hand in hand and defeated the bad We stuck together through all of it..... And just like that, it's gone...just like that, you can replace me, just like that, it's gone..... It makes me sad. A suitcase of memories I found today, My tears spell out hurt on the cold stone floor, Your name is etched and branded with fire, Upon my soul with which I will take higher, My vibration is changing, and yours is too, where did you go, I thought you were true This life is fun, I can do it without you, but whats the point in searching again, for that one thing, that one true hope, that one true dream, that one person with which you would share everything. It wasnt broken, so why try and fix it, running away and just trying to dismiss it, I thought we were true, but as you said, you loved me less than I loved you. A suitcase of memories of a special person I once knew, So special to me you are still so true, Wakening from a dream every moment I sleep, Wishing we could share that mango of peace.. I only wanted a suitcase for my new travel ahead, I didnt expect to find all of that...... Soul Bear- 2009
fabulous_chk Posted June 27, 2009 Posted June 27, 2009 Oh God, my soul bear, this brought tears to my eyes! *hugs* and prayers for the journey ahead!
Road To Joy Posted June 27, 2009 Posted June 27, 2009 This is amazing! It describes everything so well. You're not alone, you really aren't. We're all going through this with you. How have things been for you? The usual? Bad days, good days? More good than bad? More bad than good? It's good to hear from you!
sedgwick Posted June 27, 2009 Posted June 27, 2009 I'm sorry you feel that way. Throw out the suitcase!! obserd=absurd
Mr. Noname Posted June 27, 2009 Posted June 27, 2009 Soul Bear, What a nice poem! I recognize myself in it. How are you doing today, a little down moment? Just keep on fighting you were going in the right direction! Hope one day you can write a nice poem to a new lover, I think women apreciate this kind of things! Keep up the good work.
Author Soul Bear Posted June 28, 2009 Author Posted June 28, 2009 a little update: thankyou all for your replys.i wasnt really expecting any so thats cool. i wrote it all off the cuff, in a moment of weakness/sadness.its quite soothing i am down in london now. its so strange not knowing anyone. There is a new phase i have come to in healing-mega sadness. I dont know whats happening, but evenings and night times are just so hard all of a sudden. i just feel so sad that its over, when im alone i miss her so much. my new job here is really cool, but i dont understand this emotion-during the day i am happy and positive, only the last few days have been really tough at night time and evening, i seem to be just really sad and missing her...i thought i was getting better, but now everything aeems to remind me of her, all since that bloody suitcase... having CRAZY dreams again, about her and everything. this is all new to me, hence why i wrote that poem in a moment of despair. dont get me wrong, i am happy and positive, flirting, although still not rebounded, just really missing her. been complete NC since that email.anyway gonna hit the sheets now, its late and im writing this on my phone. hope you are all doing well! soulx
asuman Posted June 29, 2009 Posted June 29, 2009 You're in London. I'm so jealous. Such a cool city. There are 8 gazillion beautiful women around you. Find one of them!
Road To Joy Posted June 29, 2009 Posted June 29, 2009 What you're going through sounds healthy! Think about it, you were with her for a long time, it's normal that you're sad and miss her. Plus there are changes going on right now. Once things get more settled down, it'll become easier. After that, it's all on time's hands. I'm excited for you! I can't wait to see how you're doing a year from now.
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