t0ri Posted June 21, 2009 Posted June 21, 2009 Today is his 22nd birthday. And I saw on his myspace (CANNOT stop creeping it) that he got a tattoo that says "compassion" that he had always planned on getting. I'm mad I wasn't there for it. Ironically, I never saw an ounce of compassion in him, at least towards me. ESPECIALLY when he dumped me, not a glimmer of compassion or kindness. Anyway, I'm so sad today. Everything SUCKS! I seriously want to just lay down and cry till I can't anymore, but I'm not even capable of shedding a tear anymore. I'm past that. I feel utter sadness throughout my entire body and can't even cry about it. I didn't think his birthday would be so bad for me, but it is. It's only 6 and I want to go to sleep. He's out celebrating, today and yesterday, and I'm the saddest I've been in quite some time. I can't believe him. He threw me away like a piece of trash and never thought twice about it or felt any remorse for shattering my heart. Oh well, Happy ****ing Birthday ____.
Author t0ri Posted June 22, 2009 Author Posted June 22, 2009 Actually, now I've found some tears. Sorry for the complaining rant. Just heartbroken STILL. It's been 4 months, 2 months NC. When will the pain end :( :(
jqb05443 Posted June 22, 2009 Posted June 22, 2009 i feel your pain tori. Its been 2 months since the break up. we hung and talked a little bit during these 2 months until he told me on friday that we should move on. I feel like i am back at day one. i have not left my room all weekend crying. i was trying to go NC but broke this afternoon. i don't know what i am going to do either. i don't know when or how i am ever going to get over this. prior to my current ex i was in a 10 yr relationship and when he broke up with me it hurt but nothing like what i am feeling now. i feel like i will never be the same
iBelieve In Symmetry Posted June 22, 2009 Posted June 22, 2009 i was in a 10 yr relationship and when he broke up with me it hurt but nothing like what i am feeling now. i feel like i will never be the same I think with your 10 year relationship, the emotions fizzled out at least some. That's why it hurts a lot more now, because the emotions didn't fizzle out and everything just got shattered. But if with the previous relationship the emotions fizzled out, the same can happen with this one. Chin up! Don't worry about it.
iBelieve In Symmetry Posted June 22, 2009 Posted June 22, 2009 When will the pain end :( :( Try to stop lurking on his MySpace. This will be your demise. When he gets a new girlfriend, you'll most likely see it on there. And it'll absolutely kill you. Even though you're not TALKING to him, you're still somewhat involved with what he's doing. Looking at his MySpace isn't going to do you any good. And in some ways, it'll hold you back from focusing on your life. Picture yourself years from now, moved on, married, with kids, or however it is you picture your life after all this. Does it involve you checking his MySpace?
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