iBelieve In Symmetry Posted June 21, 2009 Posted June 21, 2009 Background story (don't have to read this): Was with my girlfriend for almost 3 years. Early/mid March she admitted to being in another relationship behind my back Jan 08 - July 08 (6 months). I love(d) her dearly, the pain was unbearable, but I just couldn't leave her, I loved her too much. Tried, and tried, and tried to make things work, but I can't help the fact she's such a raging b*tch and doesn't give a f*ck about anything but herself so late April, I broke up with her. I honestly had no choice, she was ignoring me, saying stupid things, blah blah blah. And the only reason she wouldn't do it is because she didn't want to deal with knowing she was the one who did it. But even though I technically did it, it's kind of obvious it was her (in some weird way, yknow? Wasn't my idea) ANYWAYS, May 27th, her birthday, was the last day I spoked to her officially. ---- Ever since we broke up, I haven't been paying attention to my phone. If it runs out of batteries, I leave it dead for days. And I only check my phone once or twice a day. Just kinda hard to since I know there's going to be no calls/texts from her. (Btw, I deleted her numbers and everyone connected to her [sister, friends, etc.] from my phone. And don't have any memorized.) Today I checked my phone and I had a text from a number that seemed familiar. It said, "Are you up" and it was sent at 3am. It was 3pm at the time when I read it, I replied saying that I wasn't up and asked who is this. It was her little sister, 14 years old. She apologized for sending the text, told me she was just scared. The conversation was short, we didn't bring up her sister (my ex). I asked how her mom was and wished them well, then the conversation ended (on my note). I actually don't feel anything, and that's confusing me. If anything, I just feel resentment towards her (my ex) for everything she did. And I feel I'm caring less and less for her and what's going on in her life (triggered by her sister's text). This seems weird to me, though. Just a few months ago I couldn't even imagine her being out of my life, much less not give a flying rat's ass about what's going on in hers. And I guess I'm a bit awed at how much has happened and how much my feelings have changed, especially since I never thought I'd get here. What the f*ck is this? Anybody been through something similar? Any insight?
juschilln Posted June 22, 2009 Posted June 22, 2009 its just a true sign that u have moved on...thats what nc is all about. if u would have stayin in contact w her u would have been miserable but since u didnt and it seems like u arent in the near future is a plus. Good Job keep it up
Author iBelieve In Symmetry Posted June 22, 2009 Author Posted June 22, 2009 its just a true sign that u have moved on...thats what nc is all about. if u would have stayin in contact w her u would have been miserable but since u didnt and it seems like u arent in the near future is a plus. Good Job keep it up Thank you! I was afraid it was just a weird shock stage, even though I had nothing to be in shock about. It wouldn't surprise me if I go back to getting a little upset in the near future since I got sad just last night but everything's looking up and I'm excited for the future. ! I guess I'm just surprised at how much my feelings have changed when I honestly thought I would never reach this. I'm not completely moved on, though, I don't think. The thought of her being in love with someone else still bothers me. I guess that's the next thing I have to accept...
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