michelle23nz Posted June 20, 2009 Posted June 20, 2009 hi everybody im here because i would love to hear everyone elses opinions and advice on my situation,im 23 years old engaged to a wonderful man who i live with in scotland i moved here from australia at the start of this year,our relationship was great at first as we met online and spoke to eachother for 2 years and have been physically together for one year things were going great when i moved here my partner is amazing to me hes a hardworker, determined kind hearted and loving he treats me like a queen but unfortunatly things have turned upside down i came here in the hope of a better life stable,happy and positive outlook but its the opposite, ive tryed hard to find a job and got nowhere so ive been very deppressed and let myself go ive put on weight and i rely on my partner to get me by because it seems i cant get anywhere so i gaveup i feel so much remorse for my partner he works so hard and sacrafices alot just to help us get by where struggling big time finacially,and when we have booze i skull it down like water just to numb what im feeling,and when me and my partner are drinking together it always endsup into a big argument to the point where things go flying around the room which is me that does it but he always forgives me but then lastnight i drank way to much and said things to my partner that really hurt him he wont say a word to me or acknowledge me at all like im a stranger i threw things broke things then realise now how much i have givenup on myself and my relationship and that booze is ruining what i have with my partner,i realise how selfish i have been thinking of me and my own needs when i should of stayed strong and kept trying hard to find work but instead i was weakminded and just let go now everything is out of hand because of it i feel ive let my partner down and myself, i sometimes think of how much more he deserves and that ive done nothing but let deppression take a hold of me and my poor partner is now suffering because of it but i really want to give the drinkup for awhile and start fixing things but im not sure if i have a second chance im scared that my partners having second thoughts because of the incident we had lastnight. but i have given it so much thought and realised i got to get off my ass and make things right it will be hard and im not sure where to start but i cant bare to lose what i have and most of all i dont want to see my partner struggling because of my actions i just want some advice on where to start and what to do because im determined i just need guidance thanks so much.......... this is my first relationship and im taking things harder than most proberbly because ive never been inlove before
TaraMaiden Posted June 21, 2009 Posted June 21, 2009 This is illegible. Try adding punctuation and paragraphs, because otherwise all people see is a big grey block of text, and it's really hard to read. I just read the same line 4 times and had to give up. Sorry. Please, try again. Thanks.
boogieboy Posted June 21, 2009 Posted June 21, 2009 Wow, apparently the Scottish dont believe in punctuation. Hey Michelle, ambition is sexy. Remember that when you want your fiance to look at you. So youre gonna keep drinking eh?
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