jqb05443 Posted June 20, 2009 Posted June 20, 2009 As you can see I must have posted the most today then I ever have. I am just in such a dark place and I am so alone. Its been 2 months since the break up but today I feel like I am back at that first day. I guess the first week we broke up I though he would change his mind and come back so I hurt but not like I am hurting now...after he told me yesterday that he wants nothing to do with me, not even as a friend. During the 2 months we spoke here and there and hung out a few times and when we did it was amazing until I started talking relationship again and that's when he finally pulled away. I just need to vent on here so I don't contact my ex. I hurt so much. I can't believe you left me like this after everything that I did for you. Ok so you don't want to have a relationship with me anymore, but to shut me out as a friend too? I didn't do anything to you for you to treat me like this. Maybe this is your way of moving on for good, shutting me out. I hate the weekends sooo much. That is when we spent time together. Everyone looks forward to weekends, I always did because who spent them together 24/7. Now I hate the weekends. They are the biggest reminders because I would be with you right now and instead I am here in my room, posting this and can't stop crying. I don't know why but I can only remember the good times. For some reason I blocked out all our fights. I just remember the good things we did together. You told me that it was no one else and the last time we were togther you assured me there was no one else and I believed you. But now I find it hard to believe. You are probably spending your weekends with her and calling her and texting her and ignoring me. And still I can't hate you. I wish I could call you and see you one last time. I feel like I will never be the same. My family loved you. I thought we were going to get married. You made me feel like we would one day. What happened? You promised me you would be there for me. I never did you wrong. You are out enjoying your life and I am here left all alone and crying, thinking what you are doing and with who? Yet I still can't hate you. It just makes me want to be with you even more. I am cursed
TroyNJ Posted June 20, 2009 Posted June 20, 2009 I'm so sorry for how you feel, I'm in a similar situation and frankly it's hard to even keep my head up at times. Be strong, you will get past this as I will.
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