Dru921 Posted June 17, 2009 Posted June 17, 2009 A while back I posted about "Johns" and my back and forth dating situation ( http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t189752/ ). Its a little lengthy but to simplify its been a long 9 months of teasing, great connection, fun friendship, and times of little communication. I always wanted to take it a step further with him, and when he would begin to..he always backed off. Many people had suggested that he was playing mind games, but I believe I figured it out. It has been a while since we've seen each other, but we have been in continous contact. Much to my notice in this time, he has said many things that show a softer side, letting me in a bit more and making me feel good. He said he really wanted to see me and invited me over for dinner and a movie at his place. So we set it up for tuesday night (last night). I went over, we had dinner and then put on a movie in his room. We cuddled and talked for a good 2 hours..and finally, the kiss came. The kiss that I have been waiting for, it was truly amazing. I've never felt such a perfect kiss, I felt these crazy emotions come over on me that I never recall feeling before. A kiss turned into some 4 play which went on for a little while. We both knew it was getting into sex and stopped to make sure that we both we're ok with it. We both were up for it but he said to me "are you sure because it isn't going to be what you expected"..I said yes, it's not the sex it's the experience with YOU. Well...he was right, it wasn't what I expected, the sex lasted a bit less then 2 minutes. At first I thought he completely played me, but he was so embarrassed and upset and finally admitted to me that he has an issue that he can't hold himself, and expected me to be totally pissed off..I wasn't though. I told him it was ok, that I wasn't here for the sex, but for him that I wasn't dissapointed, because in all honestly the 4play and the 2 minutes was amazing while it lasted hehe. I comforted him and we cuddled, he asked me to stay the night, but i had to be up early so I really couldn't. So I stayed for about 2 hours cuddling and talking, he turned to me and gently touched my face and said "I Hope you find a great guy, because you really deserve it". I really just wanted to scream in his face "YOU!!!!!" but I know my limits with him..and still seems he's not budging much on the relationship step. I don't regret any second of it, I still feel the greatest connection. He text me this morning and apologized and I reassured him that I don't mind. I know my end of the friendship won't change and I hope his won't either. So I think I came to the conclusion that, he was insecure about making that step with me. This was mainly a vent but I do have one question.. Is there anything much I can do to help him incase we were to have sex again?
loveslife Posted June 17, 2009 Posted June 17, 2009 I tried reading the last thread of yours but it was one continuous paragraph and really hard to read. This guy is a train wreck. Why do you want to have sex with him again? Don't you think you deserve to have sex with someone who wants a romantic relationship with you? Why do you think he is such a prize?
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