How I was able to let go

[RosyDay]

Yesterday, I posted a list of everything my ex did to me. I don't know if I posted it here or in the Breaking up Forum. Last night, I cried my eyes out, again. Then I made an even more detailed, comprehensive list and I came up with 60...that's right 60 reasons why not to go back to my ex. Then I wrote him this letter. Yes, I went into the gutter to write this, but considering the way he treated me in the relationship and after he left me...he deserved it. I did leave a few things out. I also altered some of the words so it would not be inappropriate to post, but you should be able to figure them out. After I emailed this letter to him...I felt sooooooooooooo much better, and now I feel as if I am able to move on. Here goes:

 

L,

 

I changed my mind. I actually came up with 60, that's right, SIXTY reasons why not to go back to you. From your incessant immaturity to your rapist-like behaviors, to your short d**k.

 

I don't want you anymore. You are toxic. You are an emotional parasite and a liar. You take and you take and you take and give no compassion or patience in return. You told me you would never stop trying with us, you told me I would come before your hobby, and you told me you would write me snail mail letters if I wrote you. You told me you would make more time for me. Lies. All Lies. My sister was right about you. You are a pile of s**t

 

That sham of a relationship we had was ALL ABOUT YOU: your wants, your needs, your lack of time, your hobby, your paper work, your homelessness, your car being repossessed, your problems with the law, your other car not working, not calling me to tell me what was going on when you were thinking about coming to see me because YOU DIDN'T WANT TO BE DISTURBED...YOU, YOU, YOU, THE ALMIGHT L!

 

I don't need you. I can't believe how I groveled for a month because I wanted you so badly. Go f**k yourself, L. Better yet, you go to H**l and take your girlfriend with you.

 

By the way, 6 months from now when she finds out how screwed up, how emotionally distant, how controlling, how arrogant, how immature, and how selfish you are, you will be all alone again and just jump to another woman, because you are a whore, L. You are a filthy, disgusting whore.

 

 

YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME. F**K YOU, A**HOLE.

 

DON'T EVER CONTACT ME AGAIN.

[Exit]

Some people suggest writing these letters without actually sending them to the other person =P, but whatever makes you feel better. Obviously now you have a sense of closure, and if feelings ever start creeping back, just read your list again.