Author r0xigirll991 Posted January 8, 2010 Author Posted January 8, 2010 I give up. I took no ones advice. And basically have lost everything!?!?!?!?! We weren't even together.... I have lost my home, my family's respect, my self respect, and I spent all my time making this kid miserable because I let him make me sooo miserable for so long. At this point I am eighteen and I am not going anywhere in my life because of the destruction of my relationship with kid. At this point I literally want to put on a helium gas mask and just fall asleep... Sorry to those who have to hear my sad story, but it's true. I don't even know who I am anymore... I just want to sit in a room alone and smoke cigarettes all day and hope that I die of lung cancer!?!? MY GOD. Seriously..... Ugh, wish I was more mature and just did no contact like everyone said. FML?!?!
Silver_star Posted January 8, 2010 Posted January 8, 2010 Quote from Island Girl: "What should have happened is the first time he tried to pull this crap -- you said, "if that's what you want so be it." and walked out. Then you should have gone NC with him and make him search you out to tell you how sorry he was etc. If it was going to happen and work out -- this is what needed to be done so he'd know you aren't a yo-yo he can just play with when he feels like it that is always going to come back." Just so you know...this doesnt work either, because if you do go NC until he seeks you out and he says how sorry he is and whines until you take him back, it will be good for a month or two and then he will be right back doing the same crap. -SS
Silver_star Posted January 8, 2010 Posted January 8, 2010 I give up. I took no ones advice. And basically have lost everything!?!?!?!?! We weren't even together.... I have lost my home, my family's respect, my self respect, and I spent all my time making this kid miserable because I let him make me sooo miserable for so long. At this point I am eighteen and I am not going anywhere in my life because of the destruction of my relationship with kid. At this point I literally want to put on a helium gas mask and just fall asleep... Sorry to those who have to hear my sad story, but it's true. I don't even know who I am anymore... I just want to sit in a room alone and smoke cigarettes all day and hope that I die of lung cancer!?!? MY GOD. Seriously..... Ugh, wish I was more mature and just did no contact like everyone said. FML?!?! Seriously? Your giving up that easily. That'll show him, that'll show everyone! wait a minute..no it wont. The times come to brush off your shoulder and walk away. Just walk away from that part of your life. Walk away like it never even happened and dont look back until your stronger, and can realize your human and you make mistakes.
Island Girl Posted January 9, 2010 Posted January 9, 2010 Quote from Island Girl: "What should have happened is the first time he tried to pull this crap -- you said, "if that's what you want so be it." and walked out. Then you should have gone NC with him and make him search you out to tell you how sorry he was etc. If it was going to happen and work out -- this is what needed to be done so he'd know you aren't a yo-yo he can just play with when he feels like it that is always going to come back." Just so you know...this doesnt work either, because if you do go NC until he seeks you out and he says how sorry he is and whines until you take him back, it will be good for a month or two and then he will be right back doing the same crap. -SS When I say "how sorry he was etc." there is a lot more effort expected than words. Apparently I have very different experiences with situations and dating than you do.
Author r0xigirll991 Posted February 10, 2010 Author Posted February 10, 2010 My depression has taken over all my thoughts and ambitions I once had in this life. I go to school because I am supposed too in order to live here. You think one would be busting their ass knowing that their about to be kicked out because they are literally not passing any of their classes. How could I be so pathetic? How could I let this happen to me? How could I just not care where I am in ten years? How could I just give up so easily on life? I am sure that one day in the future I will care. I know that I will care so why won't I change? I am only in high school, completely isolated, completely miserable, and utterly regretful. I almost don't even care if I end up on the streets. I don't even know what my interests are anymore. Nothing can make me happy. It's like I just want to find a place where I can sleep and just not think about any of problems because I have so many right now. I just don't know. I can't stand school. All I do is day dream. I just want to get my GED and then go find a job. I know this forum is for relationships, but I just can't help but babble about all of my problems because that's all I ever do. I just feel like I have no soul anymore, no meaning, no purpose, and I know I can't go far in life without a college education. I just feel like my past obsession with my last boyfriend has taken everything from me. I know all I have is here and now, but I am just so behind in everything that the easiest way out is too just die. I wish there was such an easy way to do it. I can't stand being tired, I hate exercise, I hate looking in the mirror, my looks are gone, and I know I am shallow. My whole family literally can not stand me and you know what? I don't blame them. I don't blame them one bit, they have given me everything and all I do is just care only about myself because I am too lazy to get out of bed in morning and catch the bus to school. Recently 18, and I want to die because I know life only get's tougher as the years keep passing.
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