sao2 Posted June 7, 2009 Posted June 7, 2009 Nothing I could have done would have mattered. Yes I did things that I feel guilty about, as I am sure she feels guilt about some of her own choices. In the end though, I am left knowing that nothing I could have done would have mattered, as much as we may love each other she was never serious about really being with me. The pattern started from the beginning and the end was marked by the same. Her decision to pull away, to walk away from what could have been amazing both had nothing to do with me and everything to do with me. If I had been the right person for her all her reasons for why it couldn't work would not have mattered. I got tired of working to convince her that what we had was worth holding on to. In the end, despite all the mistakes I made, her decision had nothing to do with anything I did, her decision was made before we even got together.
Meaplus3 Posted June 8, 2009 Posted June 8, 2009 Sounds like you have a good handle on the situation. There will be someone else for you.. you just need to find her. Best wishes. Mea:)
Author sao2 Posted June 8, 2009 Author Posted June 8, 2009 Thanks for the replies. I should be doing fine. It has been two years since we broke up. I did a lot of processing in that time. The last two years she has kept hope alive with this idea that when she is ready she wants to try again. She was still calling me every few weeks to say hello. I finally had enough of this and told her it was either time to to "be ready" or move on. She took a month deciding during which time she came for a visit(we have both moved since our break-up). In the end though, she wasn't ready. I am finally realizing that she was never going to be. Nothing I could have done would have changed that.
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