Confused5433 Posted June 7, 2009 Share Posted June 7, 2009 I felt so lonely today. It seems that everyone around me has someone except me. Even my bro (which happens to be my roomate) finally has a gf. I've never seen him with anyone Ever, and now he seems happy. Which is great but she's over all the time and all of a sudden I feel like the 3rd wheel in my own house. It's weird what's going on. All my friends are married or attached. I don't hang out with noone anymore because they are too busy or have spouse/bf engagements. Focusing on my job, studies and the gym it's starting to become monotonous. I haven't found someone special yet, then again I don't really put myself out there. But then again how? There was one person I meet online. In our first meet I felt such a strong chemistry, he was really an exceptional guy, but I just found out he just got a gf..devastating news. It's been 3 long yrs since my last relationship and sometimes I feel I'm getting old, the best times of my 20s are passing me by and I'm still all alone and too top it off...I Miss my ex more than ever! Day and night I think of him. Not good ;( Sometime I feel like quitting my job, moving to Europe and starting all over. I want to escape...that's the truth. From this city, the memories, the inertia of my life...everything and just feel alive again. I'm usually a very positive person, but today was just not my day and I have this really bad view on things. Tomorrow will be better...just wanted to let it out. Even if noone reads, this is probably the only place where I can truly say what I feel and not be uncomfortable. Thank you for reading. Link to post Share on other sites
justdoe Posted June 7, 2009 Share Posted June 7, 2009 I sit here now trying not to cry. I am not happy with me, my life, and any decisions I have made. I really think I will be alone in my own mind for eternity Link to post Share on other sites
bella23 Posted June 7, 2009 Share Posted June 7, 2009 Well you are not alone... and I shouldn't feel like that cause I have a bf but I guess he's not the type that spends more time with his gf. He works for the most part of the day... and he did finish work and stayed for a while but he wanted to head home and he's been spending time with his cousin. And i'm homealone... I can relate to you that I can't really hang out with my friends because either they have bf/gf or are married... kids and they are busy... I understand... but it sucks... You will find someone when you are least searching for it... just don't give up hope. Link to post Share on other sites
Cora Posted June 7, 2009 Share Posted June 7, 2009 I had tears in my eyes reading your post. I am feeling the exact same way right now. Today has just been terrible! Everyone around me seems happy and in love. My friends are all either married or newly engaged. Not one of my friends are single and it sucks sucks sucks! They ask me to come hang out with them but it never feels right being the third wheel. I feel so out of place and what the heck are you suppose to do when they get all lovey dovey with each other. Do you politely turn away?.....Put on a happy smile? It just feels so awkward! All I really want to do is get the hell out of there. Even my ex is seeing some new girl. Everyone just seems so damn happy. I too just want to escape from my life. I just want to get away from it all. I just feel so alone and depressed all the freakin time and it sucks! I want to believe and have hope but it's so hard sometimes on days like today. Sometimes I think it's impossible and I'm just meant to be alone forever. It's so nice to know that I'm not the only one who feels this way. It hurts and it sucks and sometimes I just don't want to try anymore....sometimes I'm just so tired. I just want to give up... Link to post Share on other sites
t0ri Posted June 7, 2009 Share Posted June 7, 2009 I'm having an awful day also, you guys aren't alone! I have family, single friends, and guys that are pursuing me, but that's not enough to keep me from feeling like this. I feel so alone, abandoned, and forgotten today. My ex, the one friend I cared about most threw me away happily and without remorse for what a complete jerk he was during and after the breakup period. I wonder how long this is going to bring me down! I'm sick of it already! It's been 3 months since my breakup. 2 of NC, and it's STILL making me cry and incredibly depressed. I can't believe my entire happiness rested in someone else's hands. Never again will I make that mistake! Hopefully things will be looking up for you guys very soon, and for me as well. Nice to know that I'm not alone in feeling alone. Thank God for this site! Link to post Share on other sites
worldwide Posted June 7, 2009 Share Posted June 7, 2009 you guys took the words right out of my mouth.....you're not alone. Link to post Share on other sites
Nedved Posted June 7, 2009 Share Posted June 7, 2009 So sorry to hear your all in such pain and feeling lonley. I woke up this morning totally depressed and feeling very empty. I d'ont want to think of the good times with my ex anymore and i'm tired of replaying what went wrong over and over again. I almost broke NC earlier and wanted to call her up and tell her a few home truths but thankfully i calmed down and saw sense. She's not worth it. I'm lucky in a way because some of my friends are single and in and around the same age(31) as me so going out is'nt a problem but i d'ont enjoy the nights out anymore. D'ont chat anybody up and find i prob over do it on the alcohol a little bit more than i would normally. Its hard putting on a brave face because and pretending to be having fun. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Confused5433 Posted June 7, 2009 Author Share Posted June 7, 2009 Thank you all for sharing your misery with me.. Times are tough sometimes and we just have to live with it and figure out a a way out. I had a dream last night were my ex was coming over for dinner with his family. He looked older with a mustache, still very skinny and a look of being tired with problems with his wife (the usual) He was distant, and so was I. It was as if we never knew each other before, so strange and awkard but real. It actually felt good to see that (even if it was in my dream) because I realized that it's pretty much close to the truth for me. My ex is past history, no hope, no love, no nothing...now just two perfect strangers. I won't lie it hurts inside because all I have left behind are the memories and the feeling of love for him. But it doesn't matter anymore, I have to move on. I woke up with a greater sense of urgency to change and take advantage of my time, my health, invest on what really make me happy. Do new things I've been putting off and just live... It helps to write of all the good things one has and read it over to realize that even if we have this feeling of emptiness and loneliness, we are all blessed in one way or another. I will start and please all of you share and read what you wrote. I'm sure you will feel better. -My parents, finally, after over 14 yrs now live happily together. My mom retired and moved in with my father up norht. They even bought a new dog, it's like they are starting over with a baby....They're happy, and I'm so Happy! -My brothers are well, one finally has his first gf and seems happy. -I've been traveling a lot lately for work and pleasure. Will be going abroad for my vacation and I will be off for almost 1month. -I'm about to do my 1rst 1/2 marathon!! -I'm healthly (at least a lot better than before with physical therapy) getting back to my training and determine to loose the excess weight. -I have a beautiful home, 2 wonderful pets, abundant amounts of food, water, comfort, leisure. -Financially, thank God, I'm well and my job is stable with a lot of prospects for growth. -I'm still young, beautiful and full of live to start new experiences. -I have great friends, even if they are married or busy with their gf/bf, they still love me and I love them all. Even If I'm still alone, I'm not that lonely and really I need to be more grateful. That felt good!! Who's next? Link to post Share on other sites
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