xxSRMxx Posted June 7, 2009 Posted June 7, 2009 NC got broken last night and it has actually made me feel ten times better. I finally got the apology and explanation I deserved. Me and my friend decided to go for a quiet drink last night to meet a couple of friends (one of these friends is my ex's best friend) To be honest I think his best friend kinda set the thing up, because he didnt tell my ex I was coming to the pub, and he didnt tell me my ex was coming. (he knows I wouldnt of come) I walked in and seen him and i felt sick!! I ordered a NON ALCHOLIC drink and walked over to the table where he was sat with our friends, we didnt exchange words for the first minute. he then made eye contact with me, smiled and said hello. I smiled back and said hello. This kinda broke the ice, after our argument last friday. For the first hour of sitting with him I went to the toilet to be sick twice! As the night progressed we chatted as normal, I made the decision to monitor the amount of alcohol i was drinking and kept a level head on me (the last few times he'd seen/heard from me since we split, id been an emotional needy idiot) Me and my friend then went back to his best friends house with my ex too, he asked me if i wanted 2 walk 2 the garage with him. I agreed, im glad I did. He said hes been dying to talk to me alone about us, I told him the way he made me feel when we split and just poured out to him how much he'd pissed me off. (minus tears!!) He said to me that although he didnt show it, he was really gutted when we finished and that apparently lots of people have given him greif about the way hes treated me. He said I was the right girl but at the wrong time (hes a young womaniser) Then he apologised and said i'd stil always be his baby and that I was the one girl he's let get close and he regrets the terrible way hes treated me. Were not getting back together, but i did feel better and i accepted his apology. I deserved it. For the rest of the night he kept saying to me ''Your like the old u tonight'' (not the needy fool id been) I needed to redeem myself. i was glad I did that. We spent the night there in the end, Not sex or even kissing just slept really in the same bed. When we woke up i dropped him home. When he got out the car I duno how i felt, i still dont kno how i feel. I still want to keep No contact, if i start seeing and speaking to him regularly again itll just hurt more. But im glad for that one night, NC was broken. Because I got the apology i deserved and it made me understand whats goin on in his head a bit better.
Meaplus3 Posted June 7, 2009 Posted June 7, 2009 In your case, it's sounds like this whole event may have given you closure.. and that's great. I'd go back to NC and prepare to move forward since you now have an explanation. Best wishes. Mea:)
sunshinegirl Posted June 7, 2009 Posted June 7, 2009 All seemed great until you slept with him. (And yes, I understand there was no hanky panky.) Sleeping with someone is an intimate act. You are broken up - why are you sleeping with someone who treated you poorly, and someone you are not getting back together with? I predict you're going to have a bit of a roller coaster ride on this. You feel great now, but before long you may start wondering what it meant that he slept with you, that he thought you were so great but just at the wrong time, etc. Just be ready for that and know it's part of the process. (I'd also recommend you not share a bed with him again! Tends to be bad for getting over someone...)
Author xxSRMxx Posted June 7, 2009 Author Posted June 7, 2009 Yeah maybe sharing a bed wasn't a good idea and when i did wake up i thought woah! But it really was a case of i was tired n it was just a crash. No cuddling or anything. I've decided to go back to NC, I've just got a new job so im throwing myself into that, going to the gym more. Everything i originally said id do. I still am hurt and think about him all the time so its best 2 go bk 2 no contact.
TheBigCow Posted June 7, 2009 Posted June 7, 2009 I actually did this too, My ex took 3 weeks to move out of our flat (she stayed in a different room) when she left me. We shared a bed twice (no sex) ... to be honest, I was no where near accepting that we were over then so it didn't change much.. but it sure was nice
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