Lovelymisa Posted June 5, 2009 Posted June 5, 2009 My mind feels like its about to explode, love is so confusing. I have been with my boyfriend for almost 2 years and we lived together in Spain, but now my ticket back to the U.S. is all set for Sunday June 7th and today is Friday June 5th. My last few days in Spain is not going well. I am getting all nervous and anxious, my heart beats so fast throughout the day… I don´t know if long distance is going to work I am so scared of the unknown- My boyfriend tried to comfort me but nothing he says help. I want to hear a promise of a definite future with him and he said that deep down in his heart he plans to come after me and marry me but he cannot actually promise me that. I know in life there are no guarantees…you may be separated by many reasons including death… but if he really plans to do that deep down why can´t he just tell me ¨i promise i will come after you and marry you someday, you don´t need to worry.¨ His reasons are he doesn´t want to have to go back on his words on the future he is not a person who says things and don´t do them. As much as he is sure he will, he just cannot say it until the day he really will do it. I know i am depriving myself from a future romantic proposal it just sucks going through a long distance relationship and not being 100 percent sure the other feels the exact same way as you. I can promise and guarantee him the world, im sad he is not willing to try to make me feel better by saying what i want to hear. Am I being unreasonable? Am I overreacting and worrying over nothing? His reasons make sense to me so i don´t know what is wrong with me really. I already got his word that he will be loyal and faithful and contact me everyday and that he will only focus on his work. But somehow i don´t feel better, i really want to hear that he will come marry me someday, if he really is going to why can´t he just say he will? Should I just let things happen and stop being so **** pushy?
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