clarkent Posted June 5, 2009 Posted June 5, 2009 Okay, I'll try to keep this to the readers digest version... Got married, everything seemed good for a year, then the sex fell off, bit by bit, until it was down to once every couple of months. I got a myriad of excuses as to why this happened and was told that I could sleep with other people, if I wanted to. (first alarm) Then around the two year mark of the marriage it's revealed to my, by confession, that there was an affair, "It wasn't your fault, it had nothing to do with you, it was just, we weren't having good conversations, you're not active enough, you're not career driven enough...." But there's a revelation, at the end, that I am the right person, and we compliment each other, and I don't want to lose you. So, I stay. Then a couple months later, I catch him online, on sites that exist only for people to have sex with other people. And this time it's "Those aren't my profiles, I don't even know what a personal site looks like, someone else is using my picture." Then, again, only after much arguing does he confess that yes they are his personals and he understands why I"m upset and he'll take them down (Which he does only after a few more weeks of fighting over them still being there) Then, a few months after that, I go on a group hike with some people, most of whom I don't know. And people are asking me how he's doing, I tell them and one person's head perks up. I find out, when this person pulls me aside to be discreet, that they have a date with my husband, later that week. Why's it so hard to say goodbye, is my question? Obviously nothing's going to change here, so what am I waiting for? When I write it all down, like this, it seems ridiculous, to me, that I'm even still here.
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