Computer Chip Posted June 1, 2009 Posted June 1, 2009 I am a computer chip. Everything about me is just as a computer chip is. My sense of humour is like a computer chip. My mind is like a computer chip. My emotions are like a computer chip. I want to love someone so badly but I can't because my heart is just like a computer chip. So I go online and meet people instead. I even have a few girlfriends that I met online and I give all my free time to them. It's sex to me. This is the only sex I have because I am Asian and my you-know-what is like a computer chip too. This makes me feel bad. I know nobody else IRL would want me because of it and I'm sometimes called gay because I never have a GF. I have no sense of humour when it comes to being called gay. It hurts my feelings and I get angry but lucky for me my emotions are only like a computer chip. So it's not a deep hurt. There are a couple of girls I really like online. One is my weekend girl. We spend every weekend getting along swell because she doesn't date much either. There are a couple of problems with her though. For one she lives in a whole other country. For two she sometimes has a boyfriend. Well she thinks they're a boyfriend and she gets all happy about them and then I feel ignored. But she must not be able to pick up on social cues as much as me because they aren't really a boyfriend. They just want sex and when they have sex they leave her. She must not be very sexy but that is okay by me. When they leave her she is back giving her attention to me and it's great that she falls so much for them in such a short time because she cries and I am her shoulder. Usually she cries longer than they were even together. But I love the attention. And I'm glad she's my girl. Even if she is in her late 30s. I know we will never be a couple IRL because even though she is thin she probably weighs more than me. I see guys everywhere who look good and have muscles and I know no girl would want me. I get no attention IRL so I use the internet for that. My second girl is out of my league. She is only about 20 and she is more together than I am. She has a life outside of the computer. She is smart and she's funny plus she's really cute too. She complains sometimes about her parents but I can't really help her. I don't see her as a daughter. When I think of her I think of sex. So we talk dirty sometimes and even though I know she is kidding I'm not. I want sex so bad with her but she only uses the computer to pass time when she's working. But I'm glad she gives her attention to me. How do I get attention like this in the real world? I have tried and nobody pays attention to me. But deep down inside I'm glad about that. I know I could never really satisfy a woman anyway. So I use the internet for my sexual relations. Is there something wrong with me?
robinincarolina Posted June 2, 2009 Posted June 2, 2009 I would say yes there is something wrong with you. What are you afraid of? You are missing out on a lot of living in your computer world.
Els Posted June 2, 2009 Posted June 2, 2009 Uh... I actually had a very heartfelt reply in mind when I started reading your thread. But honestly, the tongue-in-cheek way you talk and the happy smilies you make seem to belie your seriousness. ARE you serious? Do you want advice? Or are you just posting your life story (which you're very happy with, from the looks of it)?
Author Computer Chip Posted June 2, 2009 Author Posted June 2, 2009 I want to know that other people do it to. if I'm normal.
Owl Posted June 2, 2009 Posted June 2, 2009 Darn...just when I was really thinking that CLV and I could NEVER agree on something...
Author Computer Chip Posted June 3, 2009 Author Posted June 3, 2009 I would say yes there is something wrong with you. What are you afraid of? You are missing out on a lot of living in your computer world. Thank you for this reply. I missed it yesterday. I can't get attention in the real world. I know other people have more interesting lives then me and it's mean but I make fun of them. The internet is my biggest source of fun. Making fun of people is more fun then anyting I do in life. I am jealous. I want a life where people pay attention. I want to be interesting. That's all I want. My girl understands me and she is mean like me. Guys dump on her alot so she undertand me. She understands the jealousy. She brags sometimes but I listen about he boss's son. He probably doesn't get attention either. We are in the same boat. I know it is wrong but feels right.
Not the love ace Posted June 5, 2009 Posted June 5, 2009 Nothing is better than the real thing my friend.
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