Flying Burrito Posted May 27, 2009 Posted May 27, 2009 Amy (my ex) called today and left a message asking me to talk to her. Its the first time she has tried to talk to me since before six months ago when I cut her off. The night she stopped by doesn't count. We didn't say much then and haven't had any contact since. Basically, she wants to know why I cut off all contact. She said its important to her to understand what happened. I realize its unfair but I'm angry. She is smarter than this. Or at least I thought she was. It would be ridiculous for me to call back only to say "I don't want to talk to you." This is why I avoided talking to her when I cut her off. What is there to say? What is there to explain? What is there to understand? Its over and we're not going to be friends and we're not going to be in each other's lives again. What about that needs explaining? Alternative titles: What would you say? What would you want to hear? What would be enough to be finished with this?
Jdw_Icequeen Posted May 27, 2009 Posted May 27, 2009 This probably isn't much help. You have pretty much said it yourself. You don't want her back you don't want to be friends. So why call her to say I don't want to talk to you. Unless you have some thought of rekindling a relationship or friendship, let sleeping dogs ly.
Author Flying Burrito Posted May 28, 2009 Author Posted May 28, 2009 Right, yeah. I know. I got angry because there is no other option and its frustrating. I don't want to worry about her. I think about her as little as possible. I visit this site less frequently because I don't want to be reminded of her. After reading here for a couple of months, I wondered if Ames is in as bad shape as some of these other people. Actually, I wondered if Ames is in loads worse shape than the people here. Last weekend I woke up in the middle of the night and I don't remember what I was dreaming but I had a feeling in my gut that I would get another phone message or text from one of her friends telling me Amy killed herself. And what will I do then?
Jdw_Icequeen Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 Well it hurts and it hurts alot. You havn't had contact in 6 months. It kinda sounds like you wish you could talk to her. Perhaps I am wrong there. I don't know your story. But if your mind is made up, then there is nothing you can do. Except what you are doing. The only thing that will heal things is time.
notalone Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 You had the break-up. You had the break-up shag. The only thing left to do now is nothing...unless of course, you want to call and tearfully confess that you never stopped loving her etc.
Author Flying Burrito Posted May 31, 2009 Author Posted May 31, 2009 None of this was very helpful. Of course I never stopped loving my ex. Our break had nothing to do with whether I loved her, but whether I loved her enough to stay with her forever and obviously, I didn't. When I come here and read some of these messages, its hard to deny that I had someone better than anyone I know and I hurt her more than any story I've read here. But what can I do about it now is the question. I'm still uneasy about the dream from last week. I probably ruined Amy's life. If that dream becomes a reality it will be my fault.
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