akeachi Posted May 26, 2009 Posted May 26, 2009 my ex dumped me 5 weeks ago. we had been together just over a year. He wants to be a singer etc and was constantly on myspace he used to add girls allll the time and they would constantly try to flirt with him. earlier in the relationship i caught him asking for a girls MSN (she lived in America ) but still!anyway i went away on holiday with the girls and he sunddenly realised what we had all this girls thing stopped....he got a good job and wanted to look for a house. Then a clothing company contacted him and wanted him to model Then he went back to wanting to be famous etc so the girls started being added. I got jealous and then he hit me with it. Said we were arguing to much i have no self esteem rah rah. So i managed NC for 3 weeks until friday i bumped into him since we broke up ii have dropped 2 dress sizes etc. he was like you need to eat. and he couldnt believe i had gone on a date ( i didnt actually go some guy txt me and i said no but my ex found this out and assumed i went!)and said in a years time well be together we just need to have fun we were arguing and he hugged me and was like i love you. Then i had to do a photoshoot with him y.day for a magazine which went well then we decided to go to the cinema nothing happened but now i feel awful. back to not eating on the verge of tears and i feel like i cant live without him. I just dont want anyone else. And i feel the past five weeks ive just been kidding myself. I really dont know what to do just feel like im plodding by also hes doing really well recording with a well known artist got a tour lined up how am i gonna cope if he makes it?? I honestly just want to die. i feel just awful. also i said 'its a good job we broke up ya know you wouldnt be in london' and he said 'no you would've come with me all the other guys have girlfriends there'
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