animalthing Posted May 25, 2009 Posted May 25, 2009 sorry for writing so poorly, but i want to keep this brief. my ex and i have been down a hell of a road together. we spent most of our relationship alone together, giving up a lot of our friends. we started to have problems recently and she started to go out with her friends more. we got into a big fight about two weeks ago and since then she's been ignoring me and hanging out with her friends until 2-3 in the morning. i know this shouldn't anger me, but it does. my old friends don't live in the area anymore and i feel like i have nobody right now. she used to talk such crap about these girls and now she prefers to hang out with them instead of me? i know it sounds egotistical, but it kind of hurts. i know she was mad at me, but i feel kind of left out while she goes out and does the things we used to do together with her friends. i see her new facebook comments and they all have to do with inside jokes that i made up. immature, but it makes me angry. but whatever, i was getting over it and implemented no contact after a huge fight on wednesday. she tried to call me on saturday and i didn't call her back but talked to her on aim the next day. she started telling me all of the things she'd been up to but i just mentioned how i was angry with her. this led to a fight and we cut the conversation short. later that night (last night) she calls me a bunch of times really upset and says she's outside of my house. i go to her car and she's crying and screaming and hitting me because she's so upset about the fight we had on aim. she says she wants to get over me but that it's really hard and that she only hangs out with these people to keep her mind off of me. she was at the point of talking about suicide at one point. we're both 20, by the way. i stood my ground and expressed my feelings, but remained civil. i got her to calm down, and told her to get some sleep. but so many things are unresolved between us. i'm not sure if i want to get back with her, and she isn't sure either. i mean, we both want to, but we're sick of the fighting. i still feel angry and kind of betrayed, but i'm not sure why. i understand why she's doing what she's doing, but she's hanging out with a girl who tried to keep us from getting together in the first place. that angers me, as well. i feel like she's becoming a different person. i just...don't know what to do right now. what is my best course of action? leave it alone again? i was doing fine during the four days without contact, but now i'm just angry and confused. i don't want her to try and get over me, i want her to try and make things work. i didn't tell her this, though, and i don't want to just yet. because, like i said, i'm still not sure what i want. so confused and angry, like i said...
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