dreamergrl Posted May 24, 2009 Posted May 24, 2009 I ended up going out with bowling date guy. I can honestly say there was no physical attraction, at least on my part. He was nice enough. Very polite. He seemed a little nervous. I was a little put off by the very very large cowboy boots. There's something about cowboy boots that are a huge turn off for me. And he seemed awkward in them. Like he was having problems walking. The only thing he talked about was work. It was hard to have a conversation with him, because, well I don't work there, and that was the main topic. We went out and shot some darts and pool. I met some new people. I mean, it was alright, but I just wasn't feeling it. There were several times I was just kind of off in la la land, found myself thinking about D. Like, I bet he'd like this song, or something would happen, and I could totally see us cracking up over it. I also felt guilty. Why? I came home to a looooong email from him. He had kind of asked me something pertaining us. I gave him my honest answer. I was a bit shocked at his reply. Not only do I think I hurt his feelings, I think he took some things the wrong way, because some of what he said made no sense to me, and not sure how he came to that conclusion. I think part of it is in regards to the emails from last week. Here's what he had to say in the end: First off I have to say that I'm shocked of what you think, that I'm looking for girls on ***** and that is completely not true what so ever but in your mind it is, and second I'm not starting any drama. From the message that you have sent me it seems is though you have trust issues and wondering if I'm seeing other people, things like that. I want you to know I'm not the type of guy that you think I am, I'm honest, loyal, and caring and I'm not a cheater or a liar. I really do like you Lis and I want to be with you, but i want someone who can trust me and know that i am not like other guys out there and that i do care. just because I'm on ****** doesn't mean I'm out there looking for women, I have things at home I need to take care of and I wish that you could understand that. And it really hurts to know that you have doubts about us because I never have, and to be honest i was going to put time into seeing you tomorrow because of the Dan Janson fest, I wanted you to come. I wish you would have just given me a chance to show you that I'm not what you think I am, and to have some kind of support on my side with everything going on here at home but it doesn't seem like it. I really hope you still at least wanna be my friend cause I don't have many, I'am actually tearing up a bit because it always seems like people look at me like I'm just another man whore, and its way off. Sigh... I replied to him, he has read it, but nothing back. All I was trying to do was be honest with him when asked. I'm also utterly confused about the whole putting time in today to see me. Why the hell did he just not say that before. My patients for the weekend are being severaly tested. At least X finally stopped blowing up my freaking phone.
Kamille Posted May 24, 2009 Posted May 24, 2009 Ok tough love time: Yes, he may be overreacting, but he's right on one front... You do have trust issues.
Author dreamergrl Posted May 24, 2009 Author Posted May 24, 2009 Ok tough love time: Yes, he may be overreacting, but he's right on one front... You do have trust issues. Well this I know. Can I go bang my head against the wall??
Kamille Posted May 24, 2009 Posted May 24, 2009 Well this I know. Can I go bang my head against the wall?? Perfectly allowed. You can also tell him that you know you do have trust issues, and that you are trying, on your side to deal with them. Just don't enlist his help yet. That would be a co-dependent way to start something. Bring strenght to the relationship, not insecurity.
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