Ruby Slippers Posted May 23, 2009 Posted May 23, 2009 Something really great happened for me yesterday. Basically, I got a huge work gig with a big price tag doing something I love. It was the first real cause for celebration I've had in a while -- definitely since my last breakup. I invited friends out for a celebratory drink, and it was all right, but at the end of the night, I was SO missing the congratulations and celebrations with my lover. You know, the stuff that makes ya feel like a real rock star. Awesome sex is always a great way to round off an evening of festivities. I am sick of trying to shine all by my damn self all the time. Just whining a little here so I get that crap out of my system.
Emmortal Posted May 23, 2009 Posted May 23, 2009 Well congratulations on the gig, sounds like things are really looking up! I definitely know how you feel though, I would give anything to share with her some of the good things that are happening in my life lately. Have a really really big day coming up soon that I really want her to be a part of. Just getting it out of your system quite often helps though.
GoneButNotForgotten Posted May 24, 2009 Posted May 24, 2009 I can say I agree with you. Actually a lot of times I struggle more on the days when everything is going right. When I have a crappy day already she never crosses my mind because there is enough other stuff in the way. Some of the best days can hurt the most. It takes time. As you go on you get to feel more comfortable standing alone than ever before. “Each player must accept the cards life deals him or her: but once they are in hand, he or she alone must decide how to play the cards in order to win the game.” Voltaire
Author Ruby Slippers Posted May 24, 2009 Author Posted May 24, 2009 Well congratulations on the gig, sounds like things are really looking up! Just getting it out of your system quite often helps though. Thanks, Emmortal. You're right -- it does help. I also vented to another friend about the feeling the other night, and she suggested maybe I should continue to make new friends, which I think is a great idea. It takes time. As you go on you get to feel more comfortable standing alone than ever before. You're right. It is getting better every day, I think.
kizik Posted May 25, 2009 Posted May 25, 2009 Ruby, instead of focusing on the lack of things (an S.O., for example), why not enjoy the moment for what it is? If I recall, you're a musician, so it sounds like a music gig. Sweet! I am in the process of trying to book my CD release party, and when that happens, I am going to do as you did: invite some friends out and have fun, and celebrate what is, and not worry about what isn't.
Author Ruby Slippers Posted May 25, 2009 Author Posted May 25, 2009 Thanks, kizik. Actually, I got hired to write a book! I do music in my free time and am writing the material for what I hope will eventually be an album, but I make my money as a freelance writer. This book deal is a HUGE step toward making my living with pure creativity (my ultimate work-life goal), so it's a wonderful thing. You are certainly right about focusing on the positive and what is. These days, 80% of the time or better, I'm being positive and moving forward. But there are those times when I miss the closeness and connection of a romantic relationship. I'm only human! I am starting to think about life in terms of: "What if I'm always on my own?" Realistically, I think this will probably not be the case, but it's actually freeing to consider what I will do and how I will navigate my life if it is just me. Good luck with your CD release party!
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