Lost Fish Posted August 11, 2010 Posted August 11, 2010 (edited) I won't miss her crippled life ruled by fear more than inspiration. I won't miss her selfishness. I won't miss her constantly disappointing me, her cold ability to just shrug me off. I won't miss how she would just shut down to me when I want to talk through an issue or problem. I won't miss her broken promises, fantasizing about a future with me one day, then throwing a complete 180 at me the next day. I definitely won't miss the emotional turmoil I endured while I was with her. Sacrificing much of my self - my own wants and needs in order to try and keep things stable. I won't miss how stupid and foolish she made me feel when I was down. I won't miss the secrets she kept from me - like when I found out she blew me off on the 4th of July to go do ex with her friends, ugh. I won't miss her extremely dysfunctional family. I won't miss her low self-esteem. I won't miss her moods and inability to talk about why she felt like she did. I won't miss being her doormat / emotional crutch. I am so much better than the way she treated me. I can't believe I endured so much for so long with her. I also can't believe I still miss her so much. But clarity is providing resolve. Writing this out was definitely helpful. Edited August 11, 2010 by Lost Fish wording
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