bluewolf17 Posted May 19, 2009 Posted May 19, 2009 I finally blocked him on Facebook. Why was that so hard? Maybe because I could look at him whenever I wanted, and I know he could see me too. How stupid to think that would change anything. So I did it, and I feel good. I keep wanting to talk to him, to see him. But I have too much pride now to call him. Especially considering he is doing the same to me. How is everyone else doing with NC? I laugh when I write NC...it's like it's a kind of medication. Take 4 months of NC and call me in the morning. ..
LadyV Posted May 19, 2009 Posted May 19, 2009 I finally blocked him on Facebook. Why was that so hard? Maybe because I could look at him whenever I wanted, and I know he could see me too. How stupid to think that would change anything. So I did it, and I feel good. I keep wanting to talk to him, to see him. But I have too much pride now to call him. Especially considering he is doing the same to me. How is everyone else doing with NC? I laugh when I write NC...it's like it's a kind of medication. Take 4 months of NC and call me in the morning. .. 4 weeks ago, I asked my XBF to block me. Even though I would block him, I would unblock, just to look at his site, then go back to block him. I told him I just couldn't see him and this other woman talking the way that they did, flirtations and so forth. Then, I did a dumb thing and opened up a fake account to look at his site because it is open to those in the same network as he. What a mistake this was, then again, a good thing because what I discovered was yes, he is moving on. It hurt like HELL! But, you know what? It also opened my eyes and made me realize more and more that we aren't meant to be together. Good for you in making that step. It is hard, I am currious to see what my XBF is up to, at the same time, I don't want to know, nor need to know....Just like he has no business in my life. Today, I put both my MS and FB private. Only my friends can see me now. I am on day 16 NC!!! Yay!!!! It was exactly 21 days ago the last time I saw him, but who cares!!! He is not the man for me. I am putting the focus on God, and on my boys who need all my attention more than anything. I know he won't contact me via phone, his phone number is blocked and it is going to stay that way. Although I know now he will not contact me at all because he is now involoved with this other woman. I just don't want to chance it, just incase. I am feeling more and more like I meant nothing to him, that all the I Love You's were lies, or out of desperation on his part. Either way, it if was true or not, I don't care, nor do I want to hear it come from him ever again....I just won't go there anymore. Hang in there!! The first week was the harderst for me...I know I am feeling better because I have my appetite back again, I don't have a hard time falling asleep, and I am doing things for me that help me get through it...I know I am not alone...I know that God is in control, and I am going to keep it that way!!! You will get through this Blue, I know you will!!! I am just 11 days ahead of you on the NC, but you are doing all the right things for YOU...that is what is important!!!! God Bless!
Nuala83 Posted May 19, 2009 Posted May 19, 2009 How is everyone else doing with NC? I laugh when I write NC...it's like it's a kind of medication. Take 4 months of NC and call me in the morning. .. Bluewolf, It's exactly like a kind of medication! Heartache's like some horrible illness and NC is the cure. Hmm I guess it's true what they say about love being a drug. Keep up the good work! At day 5 you're now ahead of me. I'm only on day 2!!!
LadyV Posted May 19, 2009 Posted May 19, 2009 Bluewolf, It's exactly like a kind of medication! Heartache's like some horrible illness and NC is the cure. Hmm I guess it's true what they say about love being a drug. Keep up the good work! At day 5 you're now ahead of me. I'm only on day 2!!! I couldn't agree more!!! Keep it up Nuala!!!
Nedved Posted May 19, 2009 Posted May 19, 2009 Can't believe i'm into my 3rd day NC!!! had a really rough morning but went to the gym after work and felt great!! :)Still can't believe she's gone. totally empty feeling but i'm determined to get through this.
gypsi Posted May 19, 2009 Posted May 19, 2009 i had a relapse....grrr i was on day 18 and just couldnt not texted her what if she's starting to forget about me?? So i texted her 2 days ago i am back on day 2 of no contact! She was very friendly replied immediately asked how i was but she still kept it very short, im sure she is getting over me i can feel it thats the worst part. But im dead set on not making anymore contact i am so weak its pathetic! Love kills slowly so true...
xxSRMxx Posted May 19, 2009 Posted May 19, 2009 Gypsi dont be too hard on yaself, **** tho isnt it feeling like back to square one!The fact she kept it short shows just don't bother again. Im on day 1 of NC I feel sick to my stomach!
Author bluewolf17 Posted May 19, 2009 Author Posted May 19, 2009 Gypsi, Thanks for sharing. That is exactly what keeps me from not contacting him! He either won't respond (@#hole) or he will, and I will read far to much into it. I am so sorry you had to start over. I am so afraid of coming across as the psycho ex that can't move on. So I just dropped off the face of the earth.
LadyV Posted May 19, 2009 Posted May 19, 2009 Gypsi, Thanks for sharing. That is exactly what keeps me from not contacting him! He either won't respond (@#hole) or he will, and I will read far to much into it. I am so sorry you had to start over. I am so afraid of coming across as the psycho ex that can't move on. So I just dropped off the face of the earth. Trust me, I know how you feel. My XBF and I tried the whole NC thing several times in the last month, until I finally "dropped off " the face of the earth too....It is clear though, he doesn't care, because he has moved on. That helps keep me motivated. I don't ever want to be 2nd best...No one should settle...WE ALL DESERVE BETTER! Hang in there everyone!!!!
hopesndreams Posted May 19, 2009 Posted May 19, 2009 How is everyone else doing with NC? I'm on LC, can't do NC because we have a house to sell, that isn't selling! But anyway, this morning, because I haven't been answering his calls and take forever to answer a text or email he is starting to become ratty and sent me a nasty email BUT OH WELL!!!! I replied as though his comments had no effect on me and will stick to LC. I feel better for it and he doesn't. Those are the desired results to be quite honest, so in a way, I'm winning.
gypsi Posted May 20, 2009 Posted May 20, 2009 day 3 of NC hope everyone is else is doing ok? I woke up feeling like **** this morning it would have been our one year anniversary today im guted :-(
huck Posted May 20, 2009 Posted May 20, 2009 I was on day 14 of NC today but bumped into her at work. Unfortunately we both work in the same building.. She stopped to talk about things and how shes doing.. And yep - all the old feelings came flooding back.. I feel back to square one now and have fealt c**p all day.. I'd love to move jobs just so I didnt have to see her around but I like my job and have loads of good mates there... I was actually starting to enjoy my life again and going on a couple of dates with other girls but shes back in my head again now- AHHH!!
LadyV Posted May 20, 2009 Posted May 20, 2009 day 3 of NC hope everyone is else is doing ok? I woke up feeling like **** this morning it would have been our one year anniversary today im guted :-( I'm sorry for your pain Gypsi!! I woke up this morning feeling BLAH too...I just can't stop thinking about the whole sitauation. I'm trying. I'm 17 days NC!!! I just keep praying to get through this....It helps to be mad at him today and think he's a big plie of dog poop!!!
LadyV Posted May 20, 2009 Posted May 20, 2009 How is everyone else doing with NC? I'm on LC, can't do NC because we have a house to sell, that isn't selling! But anyway, this morning, because I haven't been answering his calls and take forever to answer a text or email he is starting to become ratty and sent me a nasty email BUT OH WELL!!!! I replied as though his comments had no effect on me and will stick to LC. I feel better for it and he doesn't. Those are the desired results to be quite honest, so in a way, I'm winning. This has got to be tough....My XBF and I have NO TIES to one another, just a few mutual friends, but even then, I stay away from them. I don't want to know or hear!!! I like what you said about winning!!! LOL. I feel in a way I am winning too because I was the one who initiated NC, and have thus far stuck with it, and have NOT contacted, emailed or anything!!! Haha!!! Take that Mister...I guess I really don't need you that much after all!!! LOL. I hope that is what HE thinks anyway!
Author bluewolf17 Posted May 20, 2009 Author Posted May 20, 2009 Day 6- I had a missed call from a random number, and I just stared at it for awhile. Could it be him? No Voicemail? That sounds like him. Then I just cleared it off my phone. It's funny how somthing like that can throw you off. It's been almost three months since the actual break up. I am doing much better. Of course I think of him everyday. I wonder if he even knows I am doing NC...he's not reaching out to me. Lady V said it perfectly when she stated being mad at him helps. I think about how sad I feel sometimes, and the mistakes I made, but then I realized he is the one who walked away. I wanted to work on things, he didn't. He gave up on us. I hate him for doing that. He killed it. So when I think about how great I thought he was, I just remember all the sweet things he said and did, and that they still weren't enought to keep him here. He gave up, and I don't want that. I hate him for that. I read on here, someone posted about NC-and now that a lot of time has gone by, the hate has slowly faded away, and now they are back to just being sad that the person is gone. I actually fear that. I am clinging to my hate to keep my sanity.
LadyV Posted May 20, 2009 Posted May 20, 2009 Day 6- I had a missed call from a random number, and I just stared at it for awhile. Could it be him? No Voicemail? That sounds like him. Then I just cleared it off my phone. It's funny how somthing like that can throw you off. It's been almost three months since the actual break up. I am doing much better. Of course I think of him everyday. I wonder if he even knows I am doing NC...he's not reaching out to me. Lady V said it perfectly when she stated being mad at him helps. I think about how sad I feel sometimes, and the mistakes I made, but then I realized he is the one who walked away. I wanted to work on things, he didn't. He gave up on us. I hate him for doing that. He killed it. So when I think about how great I thought he was, I just remember all the sweet things he said and did, and that they still weren't enought to keep him here. He gave up, and I don't want that. I hate him for that. I read on here, someone posted about NC-and now that a lot of time has gone by, the hate has slowly faded away, and now they are back to just being sad that the person is gone. I actually fear that. I am clinging to my hate to keep my sanity. Blue, hang in there!!! It honestly helps me so much to have his number blocked, as well as his email. He has no way of getting a hold of me unless he calls my work, or emails me here at work, which I know he won't! I have no clue if he has tried at all. I really dont' care either. It helps to know he can't get through, and with every text/call/email I get, I won't wonder it it's him. You are right, he gave up on you...he walked away. That is how I feel too. My XBF walked away...as hard as it was, he still did it. I think of the way he treated me, I allowed myself to be 2nd best to him. I too worry about being so sad about this break up months down the road, but in all honesty, I have no hope for us. I'm just trying to get by with the heartbreak he gave me, and the feelings of being "rejected". But the longer I go, the stronger I will be. He is just masking his issues with this new girl...It will bite him in the butt...It always does!!! Shoot, I heard that my XH still loved me...Yeah, tell that to your girlfriend whom you with! Whatever! We will get through this, and come out better people. At least we are here, talking to others who are going through the same thing, instead of masking things the way that many of our X's seem to do....
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