Ayla Posted May 17, 2009 Posted May 17, 2009 I have posted on here a few times. My bf and I broke up 7.5 weeks ago. We were living in a country that was not our home country. Together for almost 2 years. The break up was very sudden and there were no warning signs. I last heard from him 4 days after we broke up and I left the country the next day. I have only contected him 3 times since-the last was 4 weeks ago, he did not reply. No word from him since I last spoke to him- I do know he is burying himself in work and drink. He is also not seeing anyone. Fast forward to now, I have been back in my home country for 4 weeks. I arrived here with no money, no job and no home. The good news is that I got a job and start on Tuesday!!!! Which is awesome. This weekend I went looking for a place to live, and it started out really well. By the 4th house I was an absolute mess-and felt like crumbling in a heap. It just does not feel right to be looking for a place without him. I know that I have to find somewhere, but I honestly felt like my heart was ripping in 2. It really didn't feel right. I have been seeing a counsellor and she thinks I am doing really well given that might whole life was turned literally upside down overnight. She also agrees that he is a textbook commitment phobe. I have accepted this, and am trying to move on (if we are meant to be we will be, and if not someone better will come along), but how can I take this next step in finding a home??? I am feeling a little lost. I know he will regret it one day, and he is still hurting too, and that is his problem. Why is finding a place to live so hard on me emotionally.
Author Ayla Posted May 18, 2009 Author Posted May 18, 2009 I would love to hear how other people have gotten through the hurdle of finding a new home.
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