aada713 Posted May 16, 2009 Posted May 16, 2009 Well..i have no clue where to start....I know everyone here has relationship problems, and mine is no different. I guess this will help me to get it off my chest and try to move on..so here goes. About four years ago an old friend from high school show up in my life. We start to talk and become "friends with benefits". Everything was ok. I was not looking for a relationship at all. Plus she had a kid with some other guy she used to date. I wasnt looking to become a dad. So anyways as time goes on, I soon start to realize I started to have felling for this girl and so did she for me. Well after denying it for awhile i finaly give in. Our relationship was awsome. I fell head over heels for this girl and her daughter. I was happy and at this time I thought she was too. So we starting planning for the future. I took a promotion with the company i worked for. We had to move away from where we live to about 16 hours away from our families. Well for a few month everything was good. Making money loving life.. Well after awhile I started to get stress because of the demand of the job...I was always on the road.. I started to get depressed and started missing home. She was going throught the same thing pretty much. She just lost her grandmother, and we didnt have the money to the funeral. I hated it. Thats when the sex and passion started to dissappear. Almost like a chore for her. I chalked it up to just being stressed. So a few months after that we move back to our original home. Well she couldnt coupe, i guess.. So she moves out and goes to live with her mother. Well I was crushed.. She said she "need to find herself" and that " she wasnt happy" . During this time she was talking to a douche bag that was "saying all the right things" and I guess makeing her feel wanted. Which I dont get?!.. Because there was never a day I didnt want to make her feel special. So anyways, this guy come was read to come from 3 states away to pick her up and move her in his house..Of course by now her daughter has become close to me, as i her. I feel like her daddy. I want to be her daddy. She calls me daddy. So I was a bit worried.."She doesnt know this guy?" "what if he is some crazy killer that will lock her in a closet." Well after 3 weeks she finally comes to her senses. (I thought).She say that she want to try to make it work. Well I couldnt find work here were I live since the economy crashed. So we make a plan to move out to Texas with a friend out there. I wasnt sure of the move. But she insisted that it would be good for us..Start over fresh...Plus there was alot of work out there too... So I gather what money we have left, buought a decent car for her, and we move out there. Well for 3 months it was ok..I still felt lonley because verything I did for her she didnt acknowlege. Which hurt... No kissing, no sex, no holding each other like we use to...I didnt think to much into it.. So I begame to try hard to take the stress off of her. By doing more around the house, sending sweet texts to her at work, tell her how much she meant to me, and how beautiful she was. Still I got nothing.... Now that I think about my birthday was last month....I got nothing...No card, no nothing...I had to go buy my own birthdaycake...I didnt think about at the time, but now....it bothers me.. Anyway, on mothers day we didnt have much money. I wanted to do some special for for. But she said I could only spent 10 bucks.. So I spent 20... Im not good at writting how I feel on a card, so I got her the preetiest motherdays card I could find...One that I was happy with because it said all the things I wanted to say........Nothing..... Just a half ass smile.......Then that night she told me she was done....WTF?!?.. She said her heart wasnt in it anymore, and that what we had she doesnt know if she would ever get it back........She said she feel like she has givin up all her dream and who she was to be with me.....WTF??... She feels pressure from society that that woman should give up all her dreams to make that man happy and she doesnt want to do that....She wants her independence, to make a better life for our..scartch that..her daughter... So what the hell have I done?!?.. I gave up just as much as her to have a family...I didnt want a child yet...I didnt want to settle down...There are things that I wanted in life before I settled down.....But I made a decision..Once I fell in love with them...Once I became somebodies "Daddy". I was going to everything in my power to give them the life they deserve..Do what was nessacery to make a happy home..... So this sucks, I feel like I have been used.....When she was in high school, she used sex to get what she wanted...Looking back at our relationship there were signs, like the lack of passion on her part with the no kissing thing.....Now I feel she has done the same to me....Used sex, to get me close to her and to get out of her mothers house (since I had my house at the time)......Now she just dropped me like a bad habbit..Had to move out the house we where at, give up the job I like doing...All to move back home...now Im at mom and dads house again on top of that....Thats a shot unto itself.... I just want to hate her so bad, I feel like I was waaaaay better off before she came into my life....Now Im picking up the pieces of my life and starting over...again...from scratch... wish me luck
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