SophieA Posted May 27, 2009 Posted May 27, 2009 The past five and 1/2 years have been amazing! Up and down and sideways...we've had amazing times, sad times, rough patches...but I wouldn't change a thing. I'm glad we decided to stay together when you went away. I miss you like crazy, this long distance thing sucks, but truth be told, I'd do LD for 50 years if it meant I got to spent the last 2 or 3 by your side. Love you, B.
thegoodlife Posted May 27, 2009 Posted May 27, 2009 Being with you has taught me so much about life, love, and the world as a whole. I've grown and matured so much in our time together, and I will forever be grateful to you. For all the good times, bad times, awkward, funny, and confusing times...I love you.
taurus27 Posted May 27, 2009 Posted May 27, 2009 I love you so much and hate this stupid LD crap! Thank you for being so good to me and loving me so much for the last 2.5 years,I hope we spend many more years together happy, in love, complete!!
shadowplay Posted May 27, 2009 Posted May 27, 2009 Mine starts out similar to BEG's. I'll put the things I want to say to him in italics and my comments in regular text. Just tell me honestly. All those years ago when we were working together was that sexual tension I imagined all in my head? Were you even a tiny bit attracted to me? If I knew the answer to that question, either way, I feel like I would never have to think about him again. I just need to know if my instinct was totally off. You don't know how many hours of my life I spent (wasted, it seems) thinking about you, looking at your photos, rereading and appreciating your writing, dreaming about you even when I didn't want to. Only to have you dismiss me so rudely after a single, rushed conversation. I still can't understand why you wouldn't give me the time of day, even get to know me a little. I know that if you had just given me a chance, even for one night, you would have liked me. Maybe you wouldn't have wanted to extend the relationship beyond that night, but I know with certainty that you would have discovered I was a more interesting person than you had so dismissively assumed. That's what kills me. I know that I'm better, more interesting, more intelligent, more whatever than you think I am. And you will never know this, because you never gave me a freakin' chance. Because you immediately tagged me as some crazy chick who wasn't worth getting to know. I may have some psychological scars, but I'm not as crazy as you think I am. I was crazy about you. You were the only guy I ever felt this way about, so it killed me when you rejected me, made me act more desperate than I ever have or ever will again. I made the mistake of wearing my heart on my sleeve, but that mistake doesn't even begin to define me, yet you'll never see past it. I'm an intelligent, creative person with a good heart, godammit, but you will never know this because you're so damn arrogant and superficial. You'll never know me. Just as you underestimated me, I overestimated you. I've discovered that you're not nearly as intelligent, interesting, good-looking, kind or passionate as I once thought. One day when you're fat, bald and unhappily married, I hope you read something about me in a newspaper or magazine. You'll see something I've created, and you'll realize that was more to me than you had assumed. Maybe deep down, beneath your ego defenses, you'll realize how lame you are for just a second. Success is the best revenge, as they say. How's that for bitter?
BlueEyedGirl Posted May 27, 2009 Posted May 27, 2009 Mine starts out similar to BEG's. I'll put the things I want to say to him in italics and my comments in regular text. Just tell me honestly. All those years ago when we were working together was that sexual tension I imagined all in my head? Were you even a tiny bit attracted to me? If I knew the answer to that question, either way, I feel like I would never have to think about him again. I just need to know if my instinct was totally off. You don't know how many hours of my life I spent (wasted, it seems) thinking about you, looking at your photos, rereading and appreciating your writing, dreaming about you even when I didn't want to. Only to have you dismiss me so rudely after a single, rushed conversation. I still can't understand why you wouldn't give me the time of day, even get to know me a little. I know that if you had just given me a chance, even for one night, you would have liked me. Maybe you wouldn't have wanted to extend the relationship beyond that night, but I know with certainty that you would have discovered I was a more interesting person than you had so dismissively assumed. That's what kills me. I know that I'm better, more interesting, more intelligent, more whatever than you think I am. And you will never know this, because you never gave me a freakin' chance. Because you immediately tagged me as some crazy chick who wasn't worth getting to know. I may have some psychological scars, but I'm not as crazy as you think I am. I was crazy about you. You were the only guy I ever felt this way about, so it killed me when you rejected me, made me act more desperate than I ever have or ever will again. I made the mistake of wearing my heart on my sleeve, but that mistake doesn't even begin to define me, yet you'll never see past it. I'm an intelligent, creative person with a good heart, godammit, but you will never know this because you're so damn arrogant and superficial. You'll never know me. Just as you underestimated me, I overestimated you. I've discovered that you're not nearly as intelligent, interesting, good-looking, kind or passionate as I once thought. One day when you're fat, bald and unhappily married, I hope you read something about me in a newspaper or magazine. You'll see something I've created, and you'll realize that was more to me than you had assumed. Maybe deep down, beneath your ego defenses, you'll realize how lame you are for just a second. Success is the best revenge, as they say. How's that for bitter? Wow that is deep. I would pretty much say exactly the same thing. The key being that he has underestimated me and I have overestimated him. Also, I dream of being very successful (more than he is and more than his lover is) and him seeing it and realizing what he has lost.
Itsnotme Posted May 27, 2009 Posted May 27, 2009 Don't think of me missing you and don't you dare think that I cried a single tear. I didn't. All those hours online and hundreds of hours on the phone, I shared everything about me with you. We talked, we laughed, and for what? Three times you bottled out of meeting me. Why? Who knows, I don't care now. I've moved on. You can't though can you. You are stuck with 'What if' and I hope, sincerely hope, it's killing you. You threw away the best thing that could have happened to you in one cruel phone call. You will never know what could have been. Know that I am doing just fine, have a date tomorrow and rarely think about you. You can't say the same can you. I'm not bitter, I don't bear a grudge. I just see you for the spineless fool that you are. I actually feel sorry for you. I know that I will hear from you again but know this, you will never get a reply. I know my worth.
tkgirl Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 great thread... really gets me thinking. Anyways, here's mine: "Why did you come back into my life, only to hurt me again? Did you not feel anything for me.. ever? What were you thinking when you told me you missed me... wanted to talk to me.. wanted to see me... only to run off again? Just why are you so afraid? You can't keep living your life this way... not letting anyone get too close to you. I know you've been hurt before... your heart was broke. You know how bad it hurts, so why did you have to go and break my heart too?" I really wish I could ask him all this, and maybe finally get some answers...
IcemanJB Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 ...it's like you can tell the second I make an effort to move on. Why even offer to go out of your way for me this week, but then say you can't the next day? Why would you even tell me you could drive 5 hours round trip to take me to the airport? I didn't even ask you to. Obviously you're at the very least stalking my FB page or something. Of course I had a date with a cute girl the night you tell me this, so that put a damper on my night. You're 2.5 hours away, and it's like you know when I'm trying to forget you. It pisses me off. Either grow up, or go away.
Jersey Shortie Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 You were a better version of the type of guy I pictured being with. Except, you weren't. Because the white picket fences I painted in my head all too quickly weren't so white after all. The image you projected of yourself, the image I projected of you, neither was real. You wanted to be a part of an elite club, a corrupt elite club at that. I think the image you projected was the kind of man you really wanted to be. A good man, a man with values, a man that cared and respected women enough to call himself a feminist. But the man you were, was more fallible and deceitful. Whether the deceit was intended or just something you semi-unwillingly found yourself doing, I can't quite figure out. You are so smart and driven, such a counter opposite to my artistic nature. It was a huge turn on. Probably for both of us. You were brown consertive loafers, and I was pink sparkly legwarmers. I know you didn't think I was as smart as you. And I wasn't. Not in the ways you considered more vaulable. But damn, I am smarter then you in ways I hope you come to understand but fear you won't value because it didn't come from a book with a degree attached to it. I don't even know how you came get such snobbery when you came from a middle-class small town in Jersey. I suspect it's out of accute insecurity hidden behind cool professionalism. I would have given you more of myself but I don't think you would have valued it like I need to be valued. We had intense chemistry. I would have given you things that I don't think you will find with another woman. Because sadly, I suspect you will end up picking a woman more like yourself. And that is sincerely too bad. She won't challenge you. Because if it wasn't for your on insecurity, hidden professional agendas and own discrimnations; you would have learned alot from me that goes beyond your books and aspirations. I do think I was meant to meet you and be with you for the time I was. And I am grateful for that but regret the way you doubted yourself and lied to yourself about who you really were. It was unecessary for everyone. I would have had more respect for you had you been the bumbling man trying to do good then the cool professional trying to appear good. That felt good.
xpaperxcutx Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 I can't get you off my chest, despite not having had any contact since you told me what I (hadn't) wanted to hear. I tried to go on with my life, trying to return to the days before I actually met you, but I also can't help thinking how having had you in it was really uplifting for me. There are still occasions where I look at my phone and expect you to leave me a message. It's became a habit of wondering if you kept my number as opposed to having deleted it as I have yours. Recently I have come to believe in serendipity. I want to believe that we were meant for each other against every other odds in the universe. I won't let go of the hope that maybe we're likely to see each other again. It doesn't make me sad that you don't think about me, it's more that you didn't give either one of us a chance to pursue anything. So in waiting, I'll treasure your memory always in a little corner in my mind, only take you out once in a blue moon like a memorabilia. And while thinking of you, I'll also wonder about the chances of eventually passing you one of these days on the streets and finally being to smile at you and say a " hello". One more post, this is addicting.
moman Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 Why do you continue to bring up the topic of marriage and forever even though we've only been dating a few months? Why did you ask me last night if I want kids, and if I was dating you because you are younger and I have more time to come around? Why can you not think of anything more than marriage, kids, and family? What are you doing to make it happen? Nothing, you are just making me wonder if you love me for me, or whether you are just wanting me for the stability and income I provide, so you can have a family quickly, just like a box dinner. Poof and it's here.
Jersey Shortie Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 I didn't laugh at your jokes because they were funny. I just laughed because you were cute when you told them and you obviously wanted to make me laugh.
JLee26 Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 Why is that every time i am around you i feel the need to hug you? Why oh Why will you not get yourself a goddamn girlfriend and quit lurking around waiting for an appropriate moment? It could never and will never work. I love you, as i do all my friends but that is where it stops. I want to take care of you like a mother does a child but you continue to see something that simply is not there. I know how you feel and wish i could somehow reciprocate, but cant. So PLEASE find a girl and move on because this is going NOWHERE.
Trialbyfire Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 I have said these things to him but not in its entirety: You're a very special man, someone I love dearly and can highly respect. I sit in wonder sometimes, thinking about you and how easily this might not have happened. Thank-you for being who you are.
cat-power Posted May 28, 2009 Posted May 28, 2009 i've left out a lot of people...but these are the ones that stick. @ X you were a child-abuser and you messed up my life for the 1st 20 years, if you were still alive I would haunt you down because i'm much stronger now. @ Rogier: you did a great job topping it off, you nearly destroyed me, but I suppose you didn't know that I thought sex equals love after all i'd been thru. @Fred: i'm sorry for the way I hurt you over and over again....you were a decent guy who really cared, but I couldn't see. Hope you are well @Iwan: you were a really "bad" boy, which I didn't know at the time, but you did treat me well, better than anyone. Until that one drunken(?!) night....I hope you wisen up some day. @ Jaap, you were supposed to be the decent one, moved heaven and earth and then dropped me off the planet to persue anything with an v*gina...to resurface after 15 years...no, I don't accept your apologies! then the 6 year gap... @ Mike, you're a cheater, thankfully I found out before you could bring me down. Don't ever contact me again. FFwd to now: @ Hugo, I know you care, you know we're great together...and ...although i never thought I would think this way..I DON'T CARE if you are that much older....in 2 years I never guessed, it shouldn't matter !
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