ninjagirl Posted May 11, 2009 Posted May 11, 2009 Here I go. We were perfect for eachother but it hasn't always been perfect. After 4 yrs we've definitly made it through some yuck. I cheated on him one night one time with another man. It sucked it was awful and I lied about it for a long time. Here we are after 2 yrs of bliss and love and I told him the truth. He suspected but I denied it repeatedly until 2 days ago. He broke up with me, he says I can be his roommate and I am living in the spare bedroom. I whined and pined and all of that this weekend but I am doing much much better today, I havn't cried once. He is so gentle and understanding he even forgave me. He just cannot see me in the same light and said he didn't know if he ever would. There is some shred of hope for us do to him not throwing me out of the house. We are both entrepeneurs and have major bills and businesses to run. We literally would crumble without each other. I am not going to act like I am not praying to all gods because I am. Praying for us to reconcile, praying for us to heal. I am very spiritual and have a strong faith and connection with my creator. I am trying to stay focused on my life. I just got into motorcycling and am really enjoying it. Do you think he'll take me back? He has been cheated on twice before. I am 23 and he is 29. We really were a unique and powerful couple. At the time of me cheating I was 21 and very lost I thought our relationship was going nowhere I was wreckless and self destructive. I knew it would hurt him so I buried my shame deep deep inside. He deserves better. I would do anything to heal our hearts. I am laying low, working out, staying out of his way. I miss my daddy my hero my best friend my lover. any advice?
hurting_in_nw Posted May 11, 2009 Posted May 11, 2009 You cheated on a guy who had been cheated on twice before? And think you deserve another chance with him?
sotired Posted May 11, 2009 Posted May 11, 2009 You call him your daddy? Interesting..... Anyway, I'd say the chances of you getting back together are slim to none. If you weren't sharing bills, etc. he would have already kicked you out. This isn't his first dog and pony show, he's been cheated on before and he's no longer with those women....Why would you be any different?
Soul Bear Posted May 11, 2009 Posted May 11, 2009 I think you need to tell him exactly how you feel about him and that you want another chance before he starts hateing you. Trust me. Personal experience
Author ninjagirl Posted May 11, 2009 Author Posted May 11, 2009 it's really over. Yet my healing process has only just begun. The real issue is why did I do this. I am seeking treatment and I hope to resolve this issue within so that this never happens again. I will no longer be checking in with this forum. This is a helpful place for individuals to express themselves, however I feel that for the recovery process I am about to embark this may be more harmful than helpful. Thank you for each of your comments. I appreciate your efforts and concern. Truth is the only safe ground to stand on.
Soul Bear Posted May 11, 2009 Posted May 11, 2009 Im really confused now.... Yes it's you? my ex?! ,,,,,,,,,,apart from the age thing, and that fact that she broke up with me. Im sure she cheated a few years ago...but she never admitted it to me Maybe its not you after all!
Soul Bear Posted May 11, 2009 Posted May 11, 2009 can someone please shed some light on this...im well confused now...
sotired Posted May 11, 2009 Posted May 11, 2009 LOL...Soul...I think she was answering the question from her title "is it really over"
Soul Bear Posted May 11, 2009 Posted May 11, 2009 im absolutely bricking it right now.,........ The reply was even sent at 4.15am....that would be the same time difference of the country she was in right now..... EEEEEEEEEEEEKKKK!!!!! Someone put SoulBears Mind at rest....
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