neostar8710 Posted May 9, 2009 Posted May 9, 2009 Hi, This will be long...sorry..thank you to those who read this... So in september, I went to meet up with friends in nyc to go to this club, and through my friends, i met my current girlfriend. Betty. nothing much in the beginning, good looking, but my friend liked her, so i kept my distance, but got to know her more, and when we came out of the club, i dont know what i did, but she looked at me straight in the eyes and said "you're such an awesome person!" it sent shivers down my spine, no girl has ever said that to me... eventally, we went out..and now it's been almost 7 months, but we're at a breaking point....and i know it's all my fault the problems started after our 2 months together, i got a major anxiety attack, i found out its ROCD, well at least i think it is...ever since then ,i've been overanalzying us...what is wrong, what is good, i've gotten better at not doing it, because i even went to a therapist and just when i thought we got better, its bad again...she called me last night saying to break up and i just dont want to. why? I thought aobut breaking up because when we're together, some days, i feel the passion, other days.nothing...and we are long distance..40 minutes apart by train so we see e/o every weekend... and thing is..she usually isn't the type of girl i would go for simply because i thought she was out of my league..beauty and the geek? and i know i have been attracted to other chicks and it made me feel guilty...my heart swayed..i've told her... i dont know what to do at this point..i want to be with her, but other times, my mind wanders....ugh....i want this to be it, but then other times i feel stuck in the relationship, but now since we might break up, i dont want it...someone please help me...
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