Peter_pan Posted May 7, 2009 Posted May 7, 2009 i dont know whats going on inside my head but i just want to look on her FB to just stare at her face and remember the good times! i know i wont do that, obvioulsy but i feel like i would want to. one good thing recently is that her brother excepted my fb request, so thats nice. it means if he did hear that i had a go at her at x mass, that he dosnt care and still likes me. i do wish there was a way back to her. i am soo jealous that she is with someone else and not me. i feel like i have so much to offer her and just wish she could have given us another go. i wish she didnt meet him. i wish i didnt go into NC. i shouldnt have bottled it up. i think if i were to do it again, i would lay all my cards out on the table and just be straight up and frank. hold no grudges. went out the other night and a mates sister sprayed on some armarni code , and it brought back so many memories. its sad in so many ways for me. how is everyone else doing?
Loving Too Much Posted May 7, 2009 Posted May 7, 2009 Getting better and only 2 days in. Read my other post in the break up section called Flip Flop...why? It explains a lot of what I have been going through. I completely feel you on the facebook thing. I logged in today and I saw a comment of hers on accident. It said "3 cheers to emotional unavailability". Thats either sarcasm or she is relieved. Relieved is obviously the true answer....and why....I have no idea. So...shes happy. She happy she doesn't have to care anymore. That was a stinger. I really felt as if she was leading me on for awhile now. I had bought tickets for us to go see Star Trek on IMAX. Which is tonight. But on a brighter note I ran into a girl last night and we were just talking about relationships and such. I mentioned the Movie tickets and how one had been for my EX. She spoke right up and claimed the extra ticket. So strange the way things work sometimes....
EmperorR Posted May 7, 2009 Posted May 7, 2009 I'm feeling like crap, a part of me just wants to reach pit to my ex fiancé I'm past hating he, just to talk to her, I want back my recent ex could care less about my ex fiancé, but it's been nine month so why even try. I'll crash in my own pain and puddle
Meaplus3 Posted May 7, 2009 Posted May 7, 2009 Peter, I know it's tough but really don't do it to yourself. Don't look at her facebook that will only make it more tough to move past the whole thing. There was this guy I meet online one time. I fell head overheals in love with him. When he stopped contact I was crushed. I stared at his photos for months and cried. All it did was cause me more pain and grief. Try to keep busy and not think of her. Best wishes always. Mea:)
kizik Posted May 7, 2009 Posted May 7, 2009 Pete, it's tough love time, buddy. You've been on this site longer than I have. You and your ex broke up over a year ago. You are still whining about her. You have done little to improve your situation. All you do is wallow in self-pity. You're being a wuss and you only feel sorry for yourself. I've tried to help you. So have many others. But the truth is, you don't want help. All you want to do is sit around and act like the world f*cked you over. Go ahead, man. Waste your life. Blame your ex, blame the world. Or - and here's a crazy thought - take control of your situation. Face it. Man up. She left. And I'm starting to understand why.
northstar1 Posted May 7, 2009 Posted May 7, 2009 Pete, it's tough love time, buddy. You've been on this site longer than I have. You and your ex broke up over a year ago. You are still whining about her. You have done little to improve your situation. All you do is wallow in self-pity. You're being a wuss and you only feel sorry for yourself. I've tried to help you. So have many others. But the truth is, you don't want help. All you want to do is sit around and act like the world f*cked you over. Go ahead, man. Waste your life. Blame your ex, blame the world. Or - and here's a crazy thought - take control of your situation. Face it. Man up. She left. And I'm starting to understand why. From someone who has been on here as long as Kiz, I gotta agree Peter Time to seriously draw a line in the sand. This chick ain't coming back, and this passive contact you are doing is just keeping you focussed on this You gotta say to yourself - who gives a ***t about her life, her brother or anything to do with the past. You gotta close the book on this girl and move on bro, it's the only way you'll find happines
Author Peter_pan Posted May 7, 2009 Author Posted May 7, 2009 ok guys i know your right. yeh i feel like she left me cause i was a wuss. can you understand why i wanted her back to prove her wrong and show her how well i had overcome some of the hardest obstacles i used to face with my ocd. i dont sit around acting like the world ****ed me over man, i go out an awful lot and have fun with mates. i even go back to the city i used to live with her in and visit old mates. and i dont even care if i see her or not. but your right. i need to face it. i need to think something everytime i begin to think about her or stroking the idea of contacting her. thats where i am at a bit of a loss mate. cause there is no one else in my sights or anyone that i would consider a better person this girl my ex, was the best thing that happened to me. and i took it all for granted tbh. i didnt have any life experience and could have done a lot better having known a thing or two about relationships i know its been over a year. thats why i want to amend things. ive never been one who can just move on with my life and totally forget someone i held a lot of love for. its against my personality. i feel like a bad person. yet i know she wouldnt think of me at all. saying that. she must of. since she asked my mates on a few occasions about me. but thats nothing to anaylise appreciate the tough love
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