really tempted

[Peter_pan]

i dont know whats going on inside my head but i just want to look on her FB to just stare at her face and remember the good times!

 

i know i wont do that, obvioulsy but i feel like i would want to.

 

one good thing recently is that her brother excepted my fb request, so thats nice. it means if he did hear that i had a go at her at x mass, that he dosnt care and still likes me.

 

i do wish there was a way back to her. i am soo jealous that she is with someone else and not me.

 

i feel like i have so much to offer her and just wish she could have given us another go.

 

i wish she didnt meet him.

 

i wish i didnt go into NC. i shouldnt have bottled it up. i think if i were to do it again, i would lay all my cards out on the table and just be straight up and frank. hold no grudges.

 

went out the other night and a mates sister sprayed on some armarni code , and it brought back so many memories. its sad in so many ways for me.

 

 

 

how is everyone else doing?

 

 

wrote this in the wrong section! see how bad my mind is....

 

please reply in the coping section

[Loving Too Much]

Getting better and only 2 days in. Read my other post in the sections called Flip Flop...why? It explains a lot of what I have been going through. I completely feel you on the facebook thing. I logged in today and I saw a comment of hers on accident. It said "3 cheers to emotional unavailability". Thats either sarcasm or she is relieved. Relieved is obviously the true answer....and why....I have no idea.

 

So...shes happy. She happy she doesn't have to care anymore. That was a stinger. I really felt as if she was leading me on for awhile now.

 

I had bought tickets for us to go see Star Trek on IMAX. Which is tonight.

 

But on a brighter note I ran into a girl last night and we were just talking about relationships and such. I mentioned the Movie tickets and how one had been for my EX. She spoke right up and claimed the extra ticket. So strange the way things work sometimes....