Ex finally apologizes after 2 months

[Da Supastar BL]

I've mentioned in a couple of my old posts that me and my ex broke up in Dec. but it was completely over by Feb. I basically got treated like crap in the end and soon after he started talking to a new girl and I kinda felt like I was left in the dust. After I told him to stop contacting me, he still does it every so often. I think the most we had of NC was 12 days. I still hear from him every week or 2. Since we both have mutual friends were always gonna see each other or bump into each other someway somehow. For the past couple of weeks his brother came back down from the navy so obviously we saw each other again for the 1st time in awhile. It was really weird seeing each other again and I was acting really cold towards him. The 1st time he saw me again he was acting friendly but the 2nd time not so much, we were basically ignoring each other.

 

Like I said in my other post, I'm talking to a new guy now and he knows this. He even met him when we were all hanging out together. So the other day he aims me and tells me it really bothers him that I never say hi to him whenever I see him. That he was thinking about it the whole week how I can just say hi to everyone but him. I told him 1st of all you want me to act all nice to you and stuff when you treated me like crap and basically left me in the dust and never apologized about the way you treated me. Then he finally tells me he thought about calling me to say sorry many times but never did because he thought it would of been weird since he's saying it so late. I told him he should of just called and said it along time ago. Then he tells me "i know what ive done in the past and it wasnt right for example i would say sorry i wont do it again but yet i would do it again some way some how and that wasnt keeping my word...all in all i learned alot from u and what we had and i wouldnt give that up...u will be forever stored in my brain".

 

After saying that he called me to apologize and we basically talked on the phone for almost 2 hrs to talk about everything. So I wanted to ask him a million things. We basically talked about our past and was reminiscing on the old times. We asked how things were with us and how his dad stills asks about me. He told me when we were together he was at a dark age and was confused in the end and that he was closeminded and now he's more openminded to things. I told him that he was still young and that I learned from my mistakes. I asked him what happened between him and that girl. He told me they stopped talking and she just up and left. I asked him if she broke his heart and he was like pshh she never had my heart. He was like well she was pretty and had a good personality but I didnt like her as much as you. I wanted to tell him KARMA but i just told him that the grass isnt always greener on the other side and he told me it isnt. I told him that I did alot for him and he basically missed out a good girl and he was like yeah i know you dont have to keep reminding me..I know you did alot for me and I realized that. I asked him why he was acting so friendly towards me and my new guy at the club and he told me he really wanted to take a picture with me and that he wasnt jealous at all lol. He told me he wasnt trying to lead me on back in Jan..that he really wanted to work things but just that it was back to the same crap..I told him yeah right that he wanted to have his cake and eat it too..yada yada. I asked him if he still misses me, still cares, or if he still loves me. He told me there was one time where he missed me but he always thought about me and he still thinks about me. He said he still cares about me but doesnt love me that way anymore. I told him that people still ask about me and him if were ever gonna get back together in the future. I told him thats something I dont know and cant answer. He was like thats something I cant answer either but you never know in the future, you dont know what the future holds so how can you answer that question. He says he only thinks about the good memories with us and not the bad ones. He told me he's glad that I'm happy, and he's glad that we talked, and he knows that I've been having a lot of fun lately.

 

I dont think he was looking to get back but just to clear the air and be on good terms again. I felt better cause I finally got some answers. Sometimes I think he's tryin to stick around just to see if he can still have me. We basically left the door open but im trying not to look back and just focus on the future. I've been feeling much better than say 2 months ago. Yeah I still miss him and still think about him but I'm trying to move on and date around now.