Ugh

[animalthing]

I really screwed up last night and I feel pretty bad.

 

Basically, we went out last night and I drank, she didn't. I had been invited to this party, and she made it seem like she really wanted to go so we took her car. She didn't tell me she had to wake up early and thus couldn't stay over/couldn't drink until after we got there and I started drinking. This didn't bother me, but when I was drunk I started asking her about it and making it clear that I wanted to stay later than she could. The details are pretty hazy, because I had just consumed a bottle of diet coke and vodka and it was starting to hit me as we were leaving, but I know she felt bad and at one point she was screaming at me. So I shout back and the argument ensues. At one point I say "I hate you". She accuses me of being drunk and says it's no reason to act like a dick. I say (and I believe this at the time) "I'm not drunk, I mean what I'm saying". She smacks me. It's quiet until I get to my house. I'm debating at this point whether or not to try and patch things up before I go in, maybe at least apologize. But the stubborn, drunk side of me decides to just get out and not say a word.

 

Anyway, I realize this is all my fault. I wake up and realize what I've done, but she isn't returning my calls. And, yeah, I've called her a lot today (probably nearly thirty times since this morning). I don't even know what to say. I feel like I need to see her. I feel very bad. Things were going really well and I care about her.

 

Advice?

[TaraMaiden]

The fifth Buddhist precept is to avoid imbibing, ingesting or inhaling intoxicating substances that can cloud the mind, confuse the thinking and muddle the brain.

Now you know why.

 

I suggest you go round and sit on her doorstep and have a big bunch of flowers with you and do not drink again...

It makes you stupid, and you end up writing on a forum to gain advice from complete strangers when actually, perhaps you knew all along what you have to do!

 

 

_/l\_